Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[MegaMan]

I have finished a 7 months run of E6 5.11G and am currently on day 10 of the 2 weeks bloom.
E6 definitely helped me in overcoming internal fears and resistance. I achieved some things while on E6 that probably would have scared me too much without it. Also mid run I overcame PMO, first interest waned and then I just left it behind me.

There is still more fear and shame to resolve. During the last two months (intensifying in the last month) of E6 there was this feeling of being emotionally raw, like a sandpaper is used to grind away the fears and blemishes from my skin, and the skin has to constantly heal. I am interpreting that as my subconscious being tired of healing and wanting a break. I see my options as continuing the healing path with OGSFv2 or doing something against subconscious boredom/tiredness with MM and am divided between these options.
@Shannon  is my described response to E6 in the last two months common?
Because of this response I am leaning towards MM.

That is not something I have ever heard before.  But it would definitely indicate that it's time for you to take a break from healing for a while.  I would go with MM.

Thank you for your answer, I will run MM next. Also I can report another unusual reaction on E6 bloom and am quite happy with the program.

On bloom day 11 of 14 I had diarrhea, vomited and felt generally weak. But beside that there was no pain or feeling of illness. I turned on MIR as I had used in the past when I was ill and the typical feeling of it working did not appear. The next day I felt fine again. I think this is significant because it relates to an earlier event in my life. In early high-school I won a prestigious award and when it was time to receive this award in a fancy location, I felt like I did not deserve this. Promptly thereafter I had similar symptoms (vomiting, diarrhea) to yesterday. So these symptoms got me out of going to that award ceremony, similar to now I felt fine the next day. This leads me to believe E6 triggered and overcame deep seated fears in my subconscious. Besides feeling healthy, I also feel a bit happier and a bit more free in general now, like something dampening has been taken away.