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[Frosted]

From a quick google search, probably lol. I was never diagnosed, but I was about as traumatized as you could get before I started subs. Regular trauma is like being affected in one area that permeates to the others, while complex trauma is like all of the pieces are affected without really being able to tell where it starts or ends because it’s so interwoven right? Yeah I’d say I have that.

Since I’m here I might as well report. The bloom these past few days has been promising. It’s like this really deep sense of peace and joy. I’m not fully there yet, but I’m becoming someone really comfortable in my own skin. Unfortunately the road to get there has been brutally uncomfortable at times, despite E6’s shielding. It’s kind of weird feeling peace and joy and also feeling like crying like a child at the same time.

But the feelings and vibes I’m feeling are extremely promising, don’t know how else to put it. It’s just something you gotta feel yourself. I can tell you “I’m feeling awesome guys!”, but it’s not the same as you feeling what I feel. It’s not like some shallow passing emotion either, what I’m experiencing is something deep and lasting. At least that’s the vibe I get. Only time will tell.

Edit: If I had to put colors to the vibes I’d say it’s like clear/irridescent mixed with shiny gold/white. There’s a sense of purity and clarity that comes from it. This is the real deal. This is what you pay 400 dollars for lol (should be more).

Thanks for posting, Frosted!

Thanks! I hesitate a little with posting some of the stuff because it might sound a bit pretentious or out there, but at the same time I don’t have anyone to talk to about this stuff and I want others to see the good stuff and that even if you suffer on these subs that there is a reward for that.

Most of the time I keep it to myself because it’s either too much effort to post or I feel like It’ll be discounted somehow. But I know previous me would appreciate some of the stuff I write, so that’s a big part of why I post.