Before I go further I just want to say that I’m listening at 13/16 and 18 minutes of a loop as opposed to the default instructions of 12/16 and 15 minutes of a loop. My phone is slightly farther than an arm length away from me. Maybe like 1 and a half or a bit less than that.
I’ve been having the worst pain body attacks and worrying a lot, and just generally feeling awful lately. But I’m noticing results too. It’s like I have moments where I’m just so still inside and become the awareness that everything passes through. There’s a difference between knowing that what you’re observing isn’t the totality of you and seeing it in real time. It’s like the difference between a monkey being on your back and seeing it out of the corner of your eye, to it being right in front of you and directly apparent.
I feel like everything is becoming clearer and easier. Like all these problems everyone has are all symptoms of fundamental problems they aren’t aware of or willing to solve. Take care of the few basics and everything begins to line up.
I’ve always been intelligent, but now my intelligence is becoming more and more useful. I see reality clearer and with less distortions the more I overcome my internal issues. Instead of being a cancer, my intelligence is becoming a useful tool. It’s more about overcoming the obstacles in the way of things instead of enhancing my intelligence. The only reason I’m not learning optimally is because of emotional blockages. My intelligence is fine, it’s the stuff in the way inside that keeps me from learning things faster and overall increasing my competence.
I see directly more and more how I’m not living the life I want to live because of me.
I’ve been having the worst pain body attacks and worrying a lot, and just generally feeling awful lately. But I’m noticing results too. It’s like I have moments where I’m just so still inside and become the awareness that everything passes through. There’s a difference between knowing that what you’re observing isn’t the totality of you and seeing it in real time. It’s like the difference between a monkey being on your back and seeing it out of the corner of your eye, to it being right in front of you and directly apparent.
I feel like everything is becoming clearer and easier. Like all these problems everyone has are all symptoms of fundamental problems they aren’t aware of or willing to solve. Take care of the few basics and everything begins to line up.
I’ve always been intelligent, but now my intelligence is becoming more and more useful. I see reality clearer and with less distortions the more I overcome my internal issues. Instead of being a cancer, my intelligence is becoming a useful tool. It’s more about overcoming the obstacles in the way of things instead of enhancing my intelligence. The only reason I’m not learning optimally is because of emotional blockages. My intelligence is fine, it’s the stuff in the way inside that keeps me from learning things faster and overall increasing my competence.
I see directly more and more how I’m not living the life I want to live because of me.
