08-08-2024, 10:28 AM
(08-08-2024, 04:07 AM)Darwin Wrote: So I would really love to post a great review of my experience so far but it's been quite a mixed bag with the weight of experiences leaning toward the neutral/negative.
Positives
People reaching out: I've noticed some positive interactions with people. People reaching out unexpectedly to chat, people saying they've been thinking of me - which has been lovely.
Motivation to improve self esteem: I've had some change in thinking, notably that self belief is important - i've become slightly more aware of negative self talk and am a bit more motivated to change this.
Neutral
I haven't had any notable increase in self esteem, reliance, or much else. Compared to Self esteem 5g/5.5g where, at least in the initial month, I had quite a change in outlook on life and it fed through to all areas. I expected I would become more resilient which hasn't really happen.
Negatives.
General decrease in motivation: I find myself deeply unmotivated to do anything.
Lack of energy: I'm generally tired a lot more - I don't seem to be able to move myself - I'm forcing myself to go to a physical trainer
Lack of focus: I'm much more distractable - possibly flowing from the lack of energy/motivation
Cognitive misfiring: I'm making mistakes all over the place, I'm not as able to articulate myself and I'm not able to function as well at work. For example I've had a simple slide deck to put together in the last week and I've done nothing, I also constantly get dates and appointments wrong.
Hopelessness: I'm feeling more like I don't have much of a future - I have ideas on what to do but not the energy or determination to do it.
This is all surprising - the previous incarnation, SE. worked a treat for a while before fizzling out, and when I was on it I would - for example - experience massive jumps in productivity, because I had less negative self talk.
I'm trying to give the sub the benefit of the doubt - hoping that this is just changing some of the undelying plumbing before the effects manifest - but I'm so tired and unproductive I'm just wondering if it's worth it - I don't want to lose my job if the sub is doing this to me.
Apols Shannon - I was hoping to come back with much more positive news. I still maintain that where your subs have worked for me they've given been life changing and have given me insight into so much that 'could be' a part of my life - it's just not happened for a while.
No apologies needed. Honest feedback is what makes this all get better.
I'd like to point out that what you're describing is actually a form of resistance response, and what will happen if there is something you need to work through before achieving the program goals. It's got to work through the things that were holding you where you were, and your negative results will be acting to counter the influence the program is having until that is worked through.
Just be patient.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!