08-07-2024, 10:40 PM
Today was interesting. The first half I kept shifting from feeling a lot of shame and fear to love and gratitude. Later on I stabilized more and felt myself enjoying myself around people more and genuinely had a good time. My energy felt better than it has in that context to my memory.
Without even realizing it I’m expressing AM6 programming. I’m not sure if I just wasn’t aware this whole time or if it’s just been unlocked more. That seems to be a theme though, the old programming coming out more the more I clear/heal.
Also noticed more of that sensitivity coming up (don’t know if I mentioned it in this thread). I think it’s parts of me coming back to life and needing time to mature and adjust properly. I’m noticing I feel more alive in a lot of ways. My senses feel more alive. For example I feel the wind on my skin more. I also feel more emotional sensations and more emotional depth than before. Like old parts of myself I had forgotten about.
I feel more relaxed and comfortable in general and that feeling is growing with time. I actually think a lot of the discomfort I’m feeling inside is in response to that. The love/relaxation causes negative energy to flow as it is released and I feel it as it is being dissolved. Kind of like watching debris on the surface of a flowing river (callback!).
But yeah. Right now I feel like a balloon tied to a small rock. The wind lifts the balloon into the air, but the rock causes it to sink back down. E6 is making that rock smaller and smaller.
I suspect I’m further along than I think and the naturalizer is just pulling one over on me, but we’ll have to see.
Without even realizing it I’m expressing AM6 programming. I’m not sure if I just wasn’t aware this whole time or if it’s just been unlocked more. That seems to be a theme though, the old programming coming out more the more I clear/heal.
Also noticed more of that sensitivity coming up (don’t know if I mentioned it in this thread). I think it’s parts of me coming back to life and needing time to mature and adjust properly. I’m noticing I feel more alive in a lot of ways. My senses feel more alive. For example I feel the wind on my skin more. I also feel more emotional sensations and more emotional depth than before. Like old parts of myself I had forgotten about.
I feel more relaxed and comfortable in general and that feeling is growing with time. I actually think a lot of the discomfort I’m feeling inside is in response to that. The love/relaxation causes negative energy to flow as it is released and I feel it as it is being dissolved. Kind of like watching debris on the surface of a flowing river (callback!).
But yeah. Right now I feel like a balloon tied to a small rock. The wind lifts the balloon into the air, but the rock causes it to sink back down. E6 is making that rock smaller and smaller.
I suspect I’m further along than I think and the naturalizer is just pulling one over on me, but we’ll have to see.
