06-20-2024, 12:02 AM
@Sky Thanks man! I’ve been through a lot of shit in my life and it’s nice to start finally seeing the fruit of my labors.
Update: past 2 days have been filled with emotional pain. The pain doesn’t seem to correspond with the standard emotions. They’re kind of more like emotional wounds than emotions like sadness/guilt/anger as far as I can tell. It’s just raw emotional pain.
Underneath the pain seems to be awesome results. They’ve shown themselves to me here and there like clouds parting briefly to let the sun shine through. Today I was mostly just trying to go with the flow and relax into the pain and not identify with it. I was somewhat successful. I ended up being accidentally funny a lot today. I think it has something to do with my vibe. I was relaxing so hard that I became unintentionally funny somehow.
After a few good jokes my mood went up significantly. Today was overall a good day despite the pain.
Update: past 2 days have been filled with emotional pain. The pain doesn’t seem to correspond with the standard emotions. They’re kind of more like emotional wounds than emotions like sadness/guilt/anger as far as I can tell. It’s just raw emotional pain.
Underneath the pain seems to be awesome results. They’ve shown themselves to me here and there like clouds parting briefly to let the sun shine through. Today I was mostly just trying to go with the flow and relax into the pain and not identify with it. I was somewhat successful. I ended up being accidentally funny a lot today. I think it has something to do with my vibe. I was relaxing so hard that I became unintentionally funny somehow.
After a few good jokes my mood went up significantly. Today was overall a good day despite the pain.
