Day 106, early AM,
Not going to lie.. I'm horny as hell. I really want to start having sex again.
I took a break and didn't really care; I'm starting to care now.
Will need to decide at what point I will let off of my primary goals and boot up my dating profiles again; might feel motivated enough to speak to women in person, despite limited success.
Just might wait until I run AM7 or DMSI or X4A-xxxx before doing so.
Even Ultra Success might help.
Brief story: I was at Jiu Jitsu and an old-timer female blue belt asked to try some moves on me which involved me using some underhooks from closed guard. For non Jiu-Jitsu people, this is basically missionary position, except she was working on some headlocks.
She's at least 10 years older than me.
It's normally a platonic thing, but this time there was a vibe.
I try to shut any of those animalistic vibes off during Jiu Jitsu; fortunately, it was all mental, but the thoughts were as they were.
Not going to lie.. I'm horny as hell. I really want to start having sex again.
I took a break and didn't really care; I'm starting to care now.
Will need to decide at what point I will let off of my primary goals and boot up my dating profiles again; might feel motivated enough to speak to women in person, despite limited success.
Just might wait until I run AM7 or DMSI or X4A-xxxx before doing so.
Even Ultra Success might help.
Brief story: I was at Jiu Jitsu and an old-timer female blue belt asked to try some moves on me which involved me using some underhooks from closed guard. For non Jiu-Jitsu people, this is basically missionary position, except she was working on some headlocks.
She's at least 10 years older than me.
It's normally a platonic thing, but this time there was a vibe.
I try to shut any of those animalistic vibes off during Jiu Jitsu; fortunately, it was all mental, but the thoughts were as they were.
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