Rock's X4A-1511 journal

[Diablojack00]

I did x4a 1000 before 1511. 

I'll do the best I can to explain what happened.

My crush talks a lot. Like she talks then she bounces off. So it was hard to actually get a word in edge wise and I wasn't gonna call to her to ask her to hang out.

So I just took everything in that I could and learned as much as possible about her.

When I did 2 loops of x4a 1511 it seemed to kick my ass but I also was on antibiotics for some kinda sinus issue.

The morning I asked my crush to a movie I woke up and got ready to go to the restaurant for breakfast.

I have a rose bush by my porch and I got the idea to pick 2 roses. One for each twin.

So I walked in the restaurant and found my crush and gave her a rose. She said "Oh my God I love it, thank you!"

I asked where her sister was and she told me she is around somewhere.

She took the rose into the kitchen and the other girls were saying, "Awe you got a rose!"

I sat down and saw her sister and called her over and I gave a rose to her and she said, awe thank you, I love roses!

My crush and I interacted as normal and she was like skipping to the table and at one point she had brought the pitcher for a drink refill and she just sat the pitcher on the table and started talking.. about the weather cus it was storming really bad outside. She grabbed the pitcher handle and spun it around for a few seconds and then poured my drink.

She's just 21 and even she told me she's a kid at heart months ago.

Makes sense cus she's 21.

So she brought the bill and as I put on my jacket on I said so there's a movie coming out soon you wanna meet at the theater to see it?

She said she'd have to check her schedule but when is it?

I said It comes out on a day she is off and she said oh, okay. Let's do that.

Then she walked off into the kitchen to get my usual to go drink.

I walked toward the front desk and my crushes twin sister motioned for me to come over and she said "She's got the Uber hots for you, don't break her heart."

Up till that point I was only 90% sure the twins liked me.

So on 1 loop I was mostly internal. I executed, but it's like I was observing and thinking I see you checking me out and smiling but either you come to me or I'm not doing a damn thing. 

On 2 loops I freaking flirted with every woman and girl I saw at my part time job and my main job as a fitness trainer I had to watch what I said cus it has to be more professional.

That didn't stop the younger gym girls from turning everything I said into a sexual joke.

I could definitely date my crush. So I have always tried to focus on money but when x4a 1000 came out I bought it so I could get those girls that I might not be able to get.

Maybe it's my subconscious resisting the 2 loops cus I've got a strong push to start money magnet 5.11.

I'll stay on x4a 1511 as you advise. 

I will also stay on 2 loops and I hope it doesn't take long for it to break through whatever it's fighting.

I'm not saying you have to stay on 2 loops.  I'm just saying that it kicking your ass isn't necessarily a bad thing, or a reason to stop.

I would suggest you not change anything from whatever amount got you this date with your crush until you have a stable relationship, or your relationship has run it's course or has matured to a significant degree.  Changing things at a time like this is a good way to screw things up.  You're potentially transitioning from one state to another regarding your relationship with her, which is already a change.  Don't risk screwing it up by adding unnecessary changes into the mix.  That's my thinking, at least.

I understand and agree. I did the 2 hours then it was 3 day break. When I started back it was one hour.

I'm on a 3 day break now and will start back with 2 hours and try and take note on the difference it has on my crush.

The movie date is 2 weeks away so I've always felt that no contact and them not seeing me till the date is best.

But maybe it depends what type of person it is.

Being she's my server if I went the next 2 week to eat it may mess something up.

I see no reason I can't go in and eat as usual but I'm not sure

You have experience with servers so what do you suggest I do?