Day 26,
I have a conversational and political tracking framework - that I've been working on, that's been coming together.
I'm also rekindling my desire to up-level my coding skills, specifically in doing live graphical work, so relating to data analytics and data visualization. Have been following a tutorial where he's building out a virtual "world" - maps of streets - with no libraries, which means that all of the mathematics are done from scratch. It's cool that people have the analytical understanding to create such things!
Yesterday, I noticed moments at work when I catch people overstepping lines. Have a foreign developer on my team who will plop URL links in our chat and say something to the effect of "please review", tagging me as the required reviewer (peer review is common in development). However, there's no consideration for how busy I am before "asking" me to do it. It really bothered me as something rude, and I wrote a firm message saying that they ought to ask before assuming that I'll take that up.
Another new teammate in QA, long-time employee but new to our team, is starting to call shots at our review meetings for how the meeting is supposed to go. Not directly, but by asking a question, getting a response, saying something like: "well, that's not how we've done it in XYZ team" I honestly don't care how they do it there; we're not there. If I had slammed my foot down, she would have probably
She also has a tendency of getting a response that addresses her question, but then asks the question again, as though she is shopping for the answer she really wants. It's as though I hadn't spoken; very undermining.
It's also super passive-aggressive, and it really bothered me yesterday. Since it was her, me, no one more senior than me, and the Project Manager or DBA not present, AND the other developers were English second language, I felt a compunction to push back in real-time without really checking her.
I've gotten familiar with the idea that if we let a change in process happen one week, she will protest with "well, last week, we did <change> and there was no problem!" if we attempt to return to the process we've been doing for the past year.
I also brought it up to the attention of my project manager, as he would never know about this dynamic, since I think she is trying to change the process when there is no one senior to put her in check. I don't like snitching like that, but it will spare our team a lot of chaos and confusion.
It's like I have new vision towards identifying petty, manipulative games. The new framework that I've been building is helping, because I can put it in those terms and notice trends that are in-line with it.
I have a conversational and political tracking framework - that I've been working on, that's been coming together.
I'm also rekindling my desire to up-level my coding skills, specifically in doing live graphical work, so relating to data analytics and data visualization. Have been following a tutorial where he's building out a virtual "world" - maps of streets - with no libraries, which means that all of the mathematics are done from scratch. It's cool that people have the analytical understanding to create such things!
Yesterday, I noticed moments at work when I catch people overstepping lines. Have a foreign developer on my team who will plop URL links in our chat and say something to the effect of "please review", tagging me as the required reviewer (peer review is common in development). However, there's no consideration for how busy I am before "asking" me to do it. It really bothered me as something rude, and I wrote a firm message saying that they ought to ask before assuming that I'll take that up.
Another new teammate in QA, long-time employee but new to our team, is starting to call shots at our review meetings for how the meeting is supposed to go. Not directly, but by asking a question, getting a response, saying something like: "well, that's not how we've done it in XYZ team" I honestly don't care how they do it there; we're not there. If I had slammed my foot down, she would have probably
She also has a tendency of getting a response that addresses her question, but then asks the question again, as though she is shopping for the answer she really wants. It's as though I hadn't spoken; very undermining.
It's also super passive-aggressive, and it really bothered me yesterday. Since it was her, me, no one more senior than me, and the Project Manager or DBA not present, AND the other developers were English second language, I felt a compunction to push back in real-time without really checking her.
I've gotten familiar with the idea that if we let a change in process happen one week, she will protest with "well, last week, we did <change> and there was no problem!" if we attempt to return to the process we've been doing for the past year.
I also brought it up to the attention of my project manager, as he would never know about this dynamic, since I think she is trying to change the process when there is no one senior to put her in check. I don't like snitching like that, but it will spare our team a lot of chaos and confusion.
It's like I have new vision towards identifying petty, manipulative games. The new framework that I've been building is helping, because I can put it in those terms and notice trends that are in-line with it.
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