Stage 4, Day 11:
Much better now; the antibiotics have lowered my temperature!
But now this: I need to switch to different antibiotics because the side effects are too harsh
Wow, I can't do anything!
I've been in bed for about 5 days, and it sucks.
I want to go back to my job, be productive, and do things.
I went to the doctor's office, but the secretary was too slow, and I'm in too much pain...
I wanted to say something to her not in a good way, but my insurance ensured I got this appointment in less than an hour after contacting them. I have nothing to complain about, and I'm next in line!
Still, I don't understand how, after being sick and almost unable to drive, I'm still faster than most people.
Sometimes, I wish I was like everyone else. Slow dumb and not caring.
Maybe even stupid.
And yet, I have so much self-criticism.
How come I'm so smart and still have so many problems? Money problems, health problems, and everything else problems.
Maybe I'm just a guy trying my best in this world.
Fast forward to buying my new antibiotics: the clerk asked me too many questions, and all I did was give her a blank face. "How much is it?" That's maybe all I said.
She wanted to know why they switched my prescription and what the initial problem was.
My mom was with me, afraid I wouldn't be able to drive even though I did. She answered the clerk's questions, and I just gave her a pissed-off look—just give me my stuff and be quiet.
Feeling dominant again because I'm able to go out and move my body, yet still feeling weak. I'll return to work in a few days. Until then, I'll just lay down and hope to get well as soon as possible.
But these experiences showed me how much more Alpha I've become without noticing it, even though I've been in bed for the past week.
Main points:
More alpha
Dominant
Confidence
Wisdom
Much better now; the antibiotics have lowered my temperature!
But now this: I need to switch to different antibiotics because the side effects are too harsh
Wow, I can't do anything!
I've been in bed for about 5 days, and it sucks.
I want to go back to my job, be productive, and do things.
I went to the doctor's office, but the secretary was too slow, and I'm in too much pain...
I wanted to say something to her not in a good way, but my insurance ensured I got this appointment in less than an hour after contacting them. I have nothing to complain about, and I'm next in line!
Still, I don't understand how, after being sick and almost unable to drive, I'm still faster than most people.
Sometimes, I wish I was like everyone else. Slow dumb and not caring.
Maybe even stupid.
And yet, I have so much self-criticism.
How come I'm so smart and still have so many problems? Money problems, health problems, and everything else problems.
Maybe I'm just a guy trying my best in this world.
Fast forward to buying my new antibiotics: the clerk asked me too many questions, and all I did was give her a blank face. "How much is it?" That's maybe all I said.
She wanted to know why they switched my prescription and what the initial problem was.
My mom was with me, afraid I wouldn't be able to drive even though I did. She answered the clerk's questions, and I just gave her a pissed-off look—just give me my stuff and be quiet.
Feeling dominant again because I'm able to go out and move my body, yet still feeling weak. I'll return to work in a few days. Until then, I'll just lay down and hope to get well as soon as possible.
But these experiences showed me how much more Alpha I've become without noticing it, even though I've been in bed for the past week.
Main points:
More alpha
Dominant
Confidence
Wisdom
