The End of Exile (My first AM6 run in 5 years)

[Antaeus]

Depression has been hitting very hard this week. I am starting to really notice how much I am tying my self worth to dating and women. I have been getting very down on myself, because of my lack of success. I know that I am not that far into the program but I know it’s supposed to reduce or eliminate neediness. Perhaps this is a moment where the sub is helping me to work through a lot of the bullshit and maybe bringing a lot of things to the surface. Perhaps it’s forcing me to face parts of myself that I don’t like.

I am happy that I have at least been putting myself out there and trying to at least consider the prospect of dating.

But I have to admit the lack of results in that department has really been getting me down.

Has anyone else experienced this or is it just me?