09-30-2023, 07:43 PM
I think i get what's happening, i was using OF programs and forth as an excuse to do nothing to change my life just as people who focus on healing too much and avoid executing DMSI (not that it wasn't working but maybe i got stagnated between my depression and the symptoms). I'm pretty sure i'm getting TID from USLM since many things changed over the past days:
1. Not feeling in the mood for watching most of youtube videos i used to watch and also anime (which i use to evade reality but not games since i'm the one doing the deed instead of only watch and feel accomplishment from doing so).
2. My prejudices are starting to fade and i'm no longer judging others based on my standards.
3. I'm willing to try new things and my mental laziness is fading as well.
4. Stop sabotaging me thinking is imposible and not losing motivation.
5. Getting rid of childish thoughts which i use to lie to myself.
6. The social part of myself is trying to get out (good job going through all that shame, i'm rooting for it).
I will give it a try and also need to say i still have access to the streaming files of OGSFv2 after canceling the subscription and passed more than one month.
1. Not feeling in the mood for watching most of youtube videos i used to watch and also anime (which i use to evade reality but not games since i'm the one doing the deed instead of only watch and feel accomplishment from doing so).
2. My prejudices are starting to fade and i'm no longer judging others based on my standards.
3. I'm willing to try new things and my mental laziness is fading as well.
4. Stop sabotaging me thinking is imposible and not losing motivation.
5. Getting rid of childish thoughts which i use to lie to myself.
6. The social part of myself is trying to get out (good job going through all that shame, i'm rooting for it).
I will give it a try and also need to say i still have access to the streaming files of OGSFv2 after canceling the subscription and passed more than one month.
