09-21-2023, 11:39 AM
This last round was hard, very hard and I'm just now starting to get back to a baseline. There was a lot of hard truths to face about my life, my fears, my traumas far to much to go into also a lot of external changes but those don't really matter so much to me anymore. One thing that muddied the waters a bit was seeing an ex from 1.5 years ago for the first time since we ended things that one was extremely traumatic and she was also the girl that I was limerant for so this may have bought this trauma up earlier than I was ready to deal with it as this seems to be related to something from childhood that is very deep and painful far more so than most of the other fears and trauma I have faced so far. I did get a huge amount of clarity on my life during this last round though but seem to have snapped back a bit since then but not all the way to where I was.
Given that this last round was complicated by seeing that ex the next round should hopefully give me a better view. I get a feeling the ultrasonic may be to intense for me so may have to switch to masked but I'll start this round using the ultrasonic knowing I have a good baseline and if it is to intense switch over to the masked.
Given that this last round was complicated by seeing that ex the next round should hopefully give me a better view. I get a feeling the ultrasonic may be to intense for me so may have to switch to masked but I'll start this round using the ultrasonic knowing I have a good baseline and if it is to intense switch over to the masked.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of