09-05-2023, 10:34 PM
First day off today and there is definitely a part of me that very strongly wants to listen more often and didn't want a day off today but will keep with the 6 days off.
Have generally noticed myself a bit more at ease in social situations that I been in the past. Reflected back and for some reason in the past whenever I was getting my hair cut I would be up in my head and not at ease at all but just realized yesterday when I went wasn't up in my head at all and was just chatting away perfectly fine.
Was overcome with a deep sense of loneliness and neediness on my first day off that has just continued and got stronger as the day went on. Quite a stark difference to the days on where I was feeling quite at peace most of the time.
Have generally noticed myself a bit more at ease in social situations that I been in the past. Reflected back and for some reason in the past whenever I was getting my hair cut I would be up in my head and not at ease at all but just realized yesterday when I went wasn't up in my head at all and was just chatting away perfectly fine.
Was overcome with a deep sense of loneliness and neediness on my first day off that has just continued and got stronger as the day went on. Quite a stark difference to the days on where I was feeling quite at peace most of the time.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
