OGSF V2

[Shannon]

So I have jumped through a couple of subs recently. I did want to stick with Money Magnet as was executing but I know OGSF is the sub I need the most out of any subs so was very glad that Shannon put it out as one of the earlier 5.11 subs.

I have been around here of and on for I think 13 years now and to be honest had almost given up hope I would ever hit a point of executing as I would just stonewall and hit massive resistance with every gen that I tried. I don't know what you have done with this generation Shannon but I'm of the belief it has broken through my stonewalling and has started to execute in such a subtle way that's surprisingly powerful at the same time.

So this sub I will be doing a full run through of as I have a lot to work through. I know deep down I have some intense fears of rejection and abandonment and some trauma around it to as well as just a pervasive feeling of never being good enough it's something I've always felt at my core part of who I am.

Now on day 4 of the first cycle and definitely had some anxiety the first few days but nothing that wasn't completely manageable. This last run through was when I noticed something. 

Bit of background I have had a few limerence episodes throughout my life in fact I think most of my relationships have been with people I was limerent for and have never understood why I could just move past them like others could, why I would get so fixated on them to such an extreme degree that no one else understood, infact I felt ashamed by how fixated I would get as others never understood what I was going through. This I only learnt last year was limerence.  So 1.5 years ago after a complicated situationship things ended with a girl I was limerent for and the only way for me to deal with these things is to run and go very strict no contact then after 6 months or so the limerence goes into hiding unless I hear about them or see them or talk to them again. So long story short the girl I was limerent for contacted me the other day and I stupidly picked up, this sent me into a tail spin of limerence again. 

Now onto the subliminal so it had been going on for about 4 days so far and today when I put the sub on and started listening it melted away the obsessive thoughts were gone and there was a part of me saying what does this girl matter like truly she isn't special it was like this part of me didn't understand why I would be limerent. This was huge as nothing had ever stopped them before and based on everything I've read online the only way people ever get past it is to never see or hear from the person again. So there is a part of me that has a lot of hope that this sub may be the thing that gets me over it for good. I've never been able to truly get to the core of why I get limerence but this sub may actually heal whatever needs to be healed. Let's just say I'm excited to see where this sub takes me over the next 6 months.

Edit: One other I did notice was I got very itchy all over almost like having an allergic reaction to something on my last listen

It would seem plausible, based on what you say, that developing a limerent response is based in a very specific fear.  Which would also explain the itching response as well, which is a typical response to dealing with extreme subconscious fear.

If this works for you when it comes to limerence, by all means, you should share with others who have this situation that it helped you.  The whole point of me doing these subs, besides making a living for myself, is to help people.