http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1r5mfuspSaE&feature=plcp there's the dude I was talking about rainbow. he seems very genuine. I have yet to watch this video.
And you have an amazing way with words Rainbow. I've already told you.
Your last few sentences of your first post from today where you said:
"It all sounds very dramatic lol but I have this insatiable pull towards something that is very diffuse, a kind of wholeness, purpose, and place in my life that is beyond what I have grown to come to know and the lifestyle that comes with it. It feels very edgy and internal yet its so obvious to me nothing of real consequence can change in my outer circumstance unless I change before or with it. This by no means excludes taking action, but the action these days has to be sourced in something that links enjoyment with meaning..or the potential for those at the least."
Is exactly how I'm beginning to feel! And as for women.. I still want them in my life and have fun with them but feeling more extroverted is something I don't need right now like you had mentioned. I want to run Alpha 5.0 soon but it won't be for another year. I believe by then it will be the perfect time to run alpha again. For now focus on some specific areas and get those things taken care of. And let's start a band! When I start banking when working for Shannon and Andrew maybe I'll move to New York.. or Canada and just drive over the bridge.
And you have an amazing way with words Rainbow. I've already told you.
Your last few sentences of your first post from today where you said:
"It all sounds very dramatic lol but I have this insatiable pull towards something that is very diffuse, a kind of wholeness, purpose, and place in my life that is beyond what I have grown to come to know and the lifestyle that comes with it. It feels very edgy and internal yet its so obvious to me nothing of real consequence can change in my outer circumstance unless I change before or with it. This by no means excludes taking action, but the action these days has to be sourced in something that links enjoyment with meaning..or the potential for those at the least."
Is exactly how I'm beginning to feel! And as for women.. I still want them in my life and have fun with them but feeling more extroverted is something I don't need right now like you had mentioned. I want to run Alpha 5.0 soon but it won't be for another year. I believe by then it will be the perfect time to run alpha again. For now focus on some specific areas and get those things taken care of. And let's start a band! When I start banking when working for Shannon and Andrew maybe I'll move to New York.. or Canada and just drive over the bridge.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
