Money Magnet Adventures and Random Musings

[Have at ye]

Been feeling a little bit worse lately, something of a comeback of the "I'm a loser" mentality. It seems like my internal belief system is engaged in a tug-of-war with reality: the fact that I'm currently pretty deep on the, let's call it, "failure spectrum" externally is bearing down on me again. Let's see what comes of it. Hopefully I'll start manifesting good things soon.

Had some friendly banter with that hot little cashier again, she starts the interactions. Also another cashier, from a bakery I regularly buy yummy sandwiches at, is being very nice, even asked whether I'd like her to save some of the sandwiches for later (they sell out fast), nice. Another neighbor (this time an older woman) just approached me and gave me a bagful of fresh cucumbers out of the blue, lol.

That pesky ex-con guy has been leaving me alone recently, let's hope it stays that way, and that he'll leave the hot little cashier alone as well.

Sounds like someone is fighting for the status quo in your mind.  Fortunately, that only means that there's something it has to fight in order to try to stop the change that will happen.  The question is, can it?  And since you have a wide variety of options and it does not, the answer is... no.  It cannot.

Someone - as in a part of me, or another person? I assume some more or less unconcious part.

Anyroad, I did man up finally and sent out a CV in German in response to a chorus job offer over there at a big institution (they pay good money over there). I've been meaning to start doing it once I've gotten my singing back on track, so I'm doing so. Let's see whether they're willing to let me audition! Pretty much my only worry is that my German is somewhat rusty - I've had German classes from junior high to high school, but I've not been using the language at all except to play the Gothic games in their original language, haha.