08-05-2023, 08:48 AM
Ben, thank you for taking the time to write this out. I know it's very personal for you. Few things I'd like to respond to.
Frustration at how subtle OGSF is and how long it takes to work: it's designed to go at the right speed and intensity level for you. The one that achieves results at the speed you can handle, and which continues getting results instead of over- or under-doing it and getting shut down. The speed is what you can handle. Be patient with yourself.
The suggestions look interesting, I'll consider those.
As for "I might die", at any moment a thousand things "might" happen that could or would kill you. Asteroid might hit you from space. You might get bit or stung by a poisonous insect. Car might swerve and hit you. Boxer jellyfish, shark, earthquake, volcano, tornado, and on and on. "Might" is imagination overworked. The reality is, life is for the living, and fortune favors the bold. Easier said than done when you have a situation like yours, I know, but I have come from something very similar and I both understand and know you can and will find your way out of it.
I suggest you create a recording of yourself enthusiastically speaking counters to all of what comes up based in fear. For example:
Would become:
If I reach out to life, I can achieve unlimited happiness and success. I will be freed, happy, successful. Those who are of my vibration will accept me, and the rest don't matter. Rejection, judgement, shame and guilt only affect me if I allow them to, and I refuse to allow myself to be controlled or affected that way. I can and I choose to live without accepting guilt, shame or fear from anyone else, and I can and I choose to live without causing myself to experience guilt, shame or fear. Those who would attack me are welcome to their opinions, but I know that their opinions only matter to the degree that I allow them to matter.
If I reach out to life, wonderful, enjoyable, happy things will happen, which will make my life abundant and successful and happy, and I am grateful for this.
I now use my frustration of not achieving my full potential to successfully achieve my full potential.
Death is just a state transition from physical to non-physical, and is natural and inevitable. Living in fear of what is natural and inevitable simply wastes my precious time being alive hiding from what is, and that leads to a life wasted instead of achieved, experienced and enjoyed.
I can and do let go of past negative experiences. I can and do let go of the pain and hurt I have experienced in the past, instead of holding on to them. I can, and do, do all the things necessary to achieve my full potential in ways and at speeds that allow me to achieve my full potential easily and comfortably. I supply myself with all of everything I want from others, which makes me impervious and immune to abandonment from others. I am unaffected by rejection from others because I accept myself and supply myself with everything that I want, which neutralizes the effects of their rejection because I have freed myself of needing their approval and permission for whatever I want and need to do. I now supply myself fully with all of the acceptance, love, approval and permission I want and need.
And so on.
Create that audio recording of yourself confidently and enthusiastically speaking these counters, and then listen to it on loop on the background while you sleep. Don't try to speed it up or anything. I guarantee you, it will have a profound impact on you over time.
Frustration at how subtle OGSF is and how long it takes to work: it's designed to go at the right speed and intensity level for you. The one that achieves results at the speed you can handle, and which continues getting results instead of over- or under-doing it and getting shut down. The speed is what you can handle. Be patient with yourself.
The suggestions look interesting, I'll consider those.
As for "I might die", at any moment a thousand things "might" happen that could or would kill you. Asteroid might hit you from space. You might get bit or stung by a poisonous insect. Car might swerve and hit you. Boxer jellyfish, shark, earthquake, volcano, tornado, and on and on. "Might" is imagination overworked. The reality is, life is for the living, and fortune favors the bold. Easier said than done when you have a situation like yours, I know, but I have come from something very similar and I both understand and know you can and will find your way out of it.
I suggest you create a recording of yourself enthusiastically speaking counters to all of what comes up based in fear. For example:
Quote:If I reach out to life. I will be destroyed, I will be hurt, I will be bullied, picked on, I will be rejected, judged, shamed, guilted, attacked.
Would become:
If I reach out to life, I can achieve unlimited happiness and success. I will be freed, happy, successful. Those who are of my vibration will accept me, and the rest don't matter. Rejection, judgement, shame and guilt only affect me if I allow them to, and I refuse to allow myself to be controlled or affected that way. I can and I choose to live without accepting guilt, shame or fear from anyone else, and I can and I choose to live without causing myself to experience guilt, shame or fear. Those who would attack me are welcome to their opinions, but I know that their opinions only matter to the degree that I allow them to matter.
Quote:That if I reach out to life I might die.
If I reach out to life, wonderful, enjoyable, happy things will happen, which will make my life abundant and successful and happy, and I am grateful for this.
Quote:I’M FUCKING SICK OF NOT REACHING MY FULL POTENTIAL.
I now use my frustration of not achieving my full potential to successfully achieve my full potential.
Quote:If I die I won’t reach my full potential.
Death is just a state transition from physical to non-physical, and is natural and inevitable. Living in fear of what is natural and inevitable simply wastes my precious time being alive hiding from what is, and that leads to a life wasted instead of achieved, experienced and enjoyed.
Quote:But I’m also scared of all the pain and hurt and things deep inside I’d have to face to reach my full potential, I’m scared of all the rejection, hurt and abandonment I might find, I’m scared that I’ll just be rejected MORE in the process.
I can and do let go of past negative experiences. I can and do let go of the pain and hurt I have experienced in the past, instead of holding on to them. I can, and do, do all the things necessary to achieve my full potential in ways and at speeds that allow me to achieve my full potential easily and comfortably. I supply myself with all of everything I want from others, which makes me impervious and immune to abandonment from others. I am unaffected by rejection from others because I accept myself and supply myself with everything that I want, which neutralizes the effects of their rejection because I have freed myself of needing their approval and permission for whatever I want and need to do. I now supply myself fully with all of the acceptance, love, approval and permission I want and need.
Quote:If I fully engage with life, then I’m scared I might get hurt, bullied, attacked, bad things might happen, that I’ll die and then I won’t be able to reach my full potential.
But if I don’t engage with life then I won’t reach my full potential anyway.
WTF.
Why am I scared of not reaching my full potential?
Because something has always held me back, something always sabotages me and destroys my results.
I’m afraid that if I engage with life I will die and not reach my full potential.
But I’m also scared that if I reach my full potential that I might die.
And so on.
Create that audio recording of yourself confidently and enthusiastically speaking these counters, and then listen to it on loop on the background while you sleep. Don't try to speed it up or anything. I guarantee you, it will have a profound impact on you over time.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
