08-01-2023, 05:29 PM
Boy, is that LQA boring. Also the game's still a beta and scripting keeps crapping out, gonna have to raise that issue with the project manager. Still, found some bugs so that should keep them satisfied for today's testing.
Just had a thought that a part of me - the psychotic part (the one that exploded into full blown psychosis for a little while there) - is fine with me leading a mediocre, somewhat safe, lonely life. But I, in general, am not, and want more from life. I've been fighting that part of myself pretty much always whenever I did something I really wanted (like go for a girl I like, or pursue singing). I got so tired of fighting it after that psychotic breakdown I had moments of "I give up" hopelessness and all that. It's going to have to change its behavior because I'm going to try pretty much anything to have the things I desire. Tried some pretty "out there" stuff, it didn't work, but I'm still using these subs because I could see their effects every now and again so I'm going to keep at it.
Just had a thought that a part of me - the psychotic part (the one that exploded into full blown psychosis for a little while there) - is fine with me leading a mediocre, somewhat safe, lonely life. But I, in general, am not, and want more from life. I've been fighting that part of myself pretty much always whenever I did something I really wanted (like go for a girl I like, or pursue singing). I got so tired of fighting it after that psychotic breakdown I had moments of "I give up" hopelessness and all that. It's going to have to change its behavior because I'm going to try pretty much anything to have the things I desire. Tried some pretty "out there" stuff, it didn't work, but I'm still using these subs because I could see their effects every now and again so I'm going to keep at it.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
