06-02-2023, 02:18 AM
Today was very weird when I went down the street. It was partly like I wasn't even there, like people getting in my way, even a car that should have let me go but didn't stop (I only say this in the context of the other things that happened, by itself usually it wouldn't mean anything), I said hi to a woman I know and held my hand out to fist bump her and she didn't even do anything was just like "I'm sorry but I have to go, i'm in a hurry" again maybe she legitimately was, but it matched the pattern of other things today. Maybe 1 or 2 similar things, all small but I noticed the weird pattern.
In general what is OGSF doing? I don't really know. A bit more openness from people at times, sometimes random people saying hi to me which didn't happen before. One thing that's keeping me going on it is that almost every night when I goto bed I have my body bring trauma up and out. Basically I did a somatic based trauma course a few years ago and part of it was allowing trauma to come up and out of your body, shaking, growling, covering your head etc basically getting the trauma out that's stuck in your body.
On past subliminals it would build up strongly over weeks or months and eventually come out intensely, on OGSF it's almost every night, but just a little bit.
I remember saying UH was alot more subtle than other programs, it took quite a bit of time to become obvious. Well now OGSF wins that by far. Some impatience, but i'm not stopping.
Started at 4 loops, at one point went to 8, then I had an urge for more. I had to make more playlists on my mp3 player and for the last 5 nights it's been 12 loops, also volume up from where I started too. I was unsure and Shannon said "follow the urge". It makes sense since I have some quite deep stuff still.
In general what is OGSF doing? I don't really know. A bit more openness from people at times, sometimes random people saying hi to me which didn't happen before. One thing that's keeping me going on it is that almost every night when I goto bed I have my body bring trauma up and out. Basically I did a somatic based trauma course a few years ago and part of it was allowing trauma to come up and out of your body, shaking, growling, covering your head etc basically getting the trauma out that's stuck in your body.
On past subliminals it would build up strongly over weeks or months and eventually come out intensely, on OGSF it's almost every night, but just a little bit.
I remember saying UH was alot more subtle than other programs, it took quite a bit of time to become obvious. Well now OGSF wins that by far. Some impatience, but i'm not stopping.
Started at 4 loops, at one point went to 8, then I had an urge for more. I had to make more playlists on my mp3 player and for the last 5 nights it's been 12 loops, also volume up from where I started too. I was unsure and Shannon said "follow the urge". It makes sense since I have some quite deep stuff still.
