04-30-2023, 06:10 PM
Generally when I first listen to a program on the first night I notice all kinds of things and it lessens after that. That doesn't mean I don't get results, but the obviousness of the first night of listening is always cool.
I put it on and laid down in bed, and this was unexpected. It felt almost like I was getting a massage all over my body, especially in sore spots that cause me issues and they were relaxing. Then I realized "wow, I think i've actually been stuck in fight and flight without realizing" and it was like it was bringing me down out of that.
I had some emotions come up, and only after a few minutes I could feel I was getting closer to crying. But then something come up to interrupt that, which is an annoying pattern. I feel like if I could just let these things go through their motion naturally without being interrupted then it would cause bigger shifts.
I started thinking of one big thing that i've just not been able to do because of massive fear. I've done it twice in my life and need to do so again but I just can't seem to. I started thinking about the times I did it in the past and thinking "It actually wasn't so bad".
I had a few strange dreams that I can't remember, but definately influenced by OGSF. One dream with my now ex where I gently touched her back then regretted it because I don't want to invite her back in to hurt me again, then she did the same to me. I'm not sure if the dream continued. But I had no dreams with her in it until now, so hopefully that's a way of OGSF starting to heal it.
In the morning I got up about an hour earlier even if I was a bit tired. And my shoulder felt less sore, interesting as that's something that UH helped with alot but it still has soreness. Unexpected. It makes me wonder if some of my physical issues actually go back to fear, and guilt and shame possibly but mostly fear I think.
Something felt slightly different. I had the thought "Don't do the 5 tibetan rites as it'll affect OGSF" which are feelings i've had in the past with other practices when using subliminals, but I thought i'd try it and I noticed something shifted and I felt kind of 'normal' again instead of the subtle difference I felt from OGSF. So that's annoying, and it doesn't make sense why.. as with some other practices i've done like Qigong and such.. but i'll listen to it and find another morning routine.
I put it on and laid down in bed, and this was unexpected. It felt almost like I was getting a massage all over my body, especially in sore spots that cause me issues and they were relaxing. Then I realized "wow, I think i've actually been stuck in fight and flight without realizing" and it was like it was bringing me down out of that.
I had some emotions come up, and only after a few minutes I could feel I was getting closer to crying. But then something come up to interrupt that, which is an annoying pattern. I feel like if I could just let these things go through their motion naturally without being interrupted then it would cause bigger shifts.
I started thinking of one big thing that i've just not been able to do because of massive fear. I've done it twice in my life and need to do so again but I just can't seem to. I started thinking about the times I did it in the past and thinking "It actually wasn't so bad".
I had a few strange dreams that I can't remember, but definately influenced by OGSF. One dream with my now ex where I gently touched her back then regretted it because I don't want to invite her back in to hurt me again, then she did the same to me. I'm not sure if the dream continued. But I had no dreams with her in it until now, so hopefully that's a way of OGSF starting to heal it.
In the morning I got up about an hour earlier even if I was a bit tired. And my shoulder felt less sore, interesting as that's something that UH helped with alot but it still has soreness. Unexpected. It makes me wonder if some of my physical issues actually go back to fear, and guilt and shame possibly but mostly fear I think.
Something felt slightly different. I had the thought "Don't do the 5 tibetan rites as it'll affect OGSF" which are feelings i've had in the past with other practices when using subliminals, but I thought i'd try it and I noticed something shifted and I felt kind of 'normal' again instead of the subtle difference I felt from OGSF. So that's annoying, and it doesn't make sense why.. as with some other practices i've done like Qigong and such.. but i'll listen to it and find another morning routine.
