7 loops (Day 2 of Cycle 5)
It's been getting interesting...
The aura is getting pretty powerful to the point where sometimes I'll be crossing paths with a girl and they look like they're fighting to not look at me. Pretty cool feeling. Also, ever since playing 7 loops, I've had more small conversations with different girls that I've never talked to before. I don't know if this is one of X4A-1000's goals but I'm happy that it's happening. One of the conversations was with 2 8's asking for directions and a 6 carrying her dog that she just got. Both conversations went well but there's a common theme with both: tension. Not sexual tension but internal tension.
I feel like there's a lot of stress that goes in my mind when talking to attractive girls, likely due to resistance. It's like there's an unnecessarily heavy weight that I've having carry through these conversations for no reason. I feel like my mind is afraid of allowing myself to have a great conversation with a girl because there's a high likelihood it could lead to sex if that happened. So my mind does what it can to make it difficult to happen.
I mean, I remember one time I was in the gym a few months ago. I was talking to a 9 and having a great conversation and all of a sudden, I felt nauseous. Never has this happened to me before. So I stop the conversation short (one that I was very much enjoying and comfortable in) and go to the bathroom and in minutes I feel better. I go back out and I could tell she was turned off by me stopping the conversation short when talking to her again so I know I missed my shot.
Ultimately, if I can just get through this internal weight, then I can achieve the ultimate goal of the program: sex
(edit): Just wanted to add that once I was done typing this, I got an invitation to hang with some friends (multiple guys and girl) that I haven't been around with in months and had a good time tonight. Reason I'm mentioning this is because of what I talked about in the first paragraph (I've definitely have gotten a lot more social opportunities as of late and more small talk with random girls).
It's been getting interesting...
The aura is getting pretty powerful to the point where sometimes I'll be crossing paths with a girl and they look like they're fighting to not look at me. Pretty cool feeling. Also, ever since playing 7 loops, I've had more small conversations with different girls that I've never talked to before. I don't know if this is one of X4A-1000's goals but I'm happy that it's happening. One of the conversations was with 2 8's asking for directions and a 6 carrying her dog that she just got. Both conversations went well but there's a common theme with both: tension. Not sexual tension but internal tension.
I feel like there's a lot of stress that goes in my mind when talking to attractive girls, likely due to resistance. It's like there's an unnecessarily heavy weight that I've having carry through these conversations for no reason. I feel like my mind is afraid of allowing myself to have a great conversation with a girl because there's a high likelihood it could lead to sex if that happened. So my mind does what it can to make it difficult to happen.
I mean, I remember one time I was in the gym a few months ago. I was talking to a 9 and having a great conversation and all of a sudden, I felt nauseous. Never has this happened to me before. So I stop the conversation short (one that I was very much enjoying and comfortable in) and go to the bathroom and in minutes I feel better. I go back out and I could tell she was turned off by me stopping the conversation short when talking to her again so I know I missed my shot.
Ultimately, if I can just get through this internal weight, then I can achieve the ultimate goal of the program: sex
(edit): Just wanted to add that once I was done typing this, I got an invitation to hang with some friends (multiple guys and girl) that I haven't been around with in months and had a good time tonight. Reason I'm mentioning this is because of what I talked about in the first paragraph (I've definitely have gotten a lot more social opportunities as of late and more small talk with random girls).
