04-15-2023, 09:56 PM
(04-15-2023, 02:18 AM)Benjamin Wrote: If what you're telling us now is the case, then X4a-1000 isn't the program for you, atleast not right now.
It's not designed to get past that deep level of baggage and fear. Nor does it pretend to do so, it even directly states that getting over these fears is not it's designed purpose on the page.. several times.
Until you deal with that then you will derail these efforts. I understand this all too well, I used to generally be sleeping with a woman until I had some full on stuff happen and it took me quite a while to get back to where i'd allow myself to be with somebody again because of the fear and trauma generated from that situation, which I won't go into detail about.
It was Universal Healing that got me there. But now there's OGSF which is likely better for this. I can't speak from personal experience of using OGSF like I can for UH though. But soon I will use it.
I also understand how shit this is! It sucks, you just want women NOW.. it's like "no fuck this, I just want sex now".
It's tempting to think that would fix everything, but it won't. Say you suddenly start getting heaps of sex but haven't healed that deeper trauma inside yourself, I can tell you from experience of when I used sex and constantly meeting new women to try to fill up that hole, it didn't make me happy. It was like I wasn't happy with my life or myself, but I was distracting myself from that with tons of sex even with women I wasn't that attracted to.
Of course this will sound like the same old cliched bullshit.. but I understand it now. I was much happier seeing 1 woman I really connect with, have sex with regularly, go places with etc than just chasing the next woman, the next woman etc. That took going through alot of shit and having no choice but to face my own internal crap and get to a certain level of healing to even attract that into my life.
Sadly that seems to be over with her as of today which I have to deal with emotionally now, but that doesn't discount that I enjoyed my time with her more than those random women I didn't give a fuck about other than just having sex with.
Yeah, I know. I read the description. Personally, I wouldn't be running this sub if it wasn't for one thing going on right now: college. What I mean by that is, when reading everyone else's experiences with the sub, they had to make an effort to leave their home and go to a bar to test out how well their aura was working for them. For me, I can just step outside my room and will always see girls. Since there was only one month left until school was over, I decided this was something I had to try out.
My original plan was to run OGSF after this, regardless, over the summer since I'll be at home around family during that time and then DMSI when school is back in session. By doing this 1-2 punch, I believe I will start having much more success with girls since a lot of my baggage will be gone.
At the time of choosing whether or not to run this, I felt like I would regret not running it since I felt like I could leverage the part of the sub where the aura's effects on a woman build up over time. I was (and still am) thinking that if I can just be myself and be around women, then they will feel more inclined or willing to take some kind of action in order to get closer to me. While a nice theory, not sure how it will turn out just yet. My intuition tells me to increase by 1 loop this next cycle and see how it goes. All in all, I try to not live by regrets but I'm also hoping I don't waste a month running a sub that won't get me results.
