04-14-2023, 10:12 AM
(04-14-2023, 08:35 AM)Shannon Wrote: I can only go by what information you give me in your journal, and that's how it sounded. Getting mad isn't going to help if I'm only trying to point out what to do differently based on what information I have. If I'm wrong, then chalk it up to not enough information. But if I'm right, then getting mad is just a defensive measure for your ego, and that's not going to be helpful either. I'm recently dealing with some stuff that's made me much less patient and diplomatic because all that goes to dealing with life recently, so if I was out of line, I apologize. That's not what I intended. As I said, only going on what information I could gather from your journal.
If you've had this level of looks and results from women before X4A-1000, how do you know what's happening is X4A? And why would you be having trouble with 8-9-10s on X4A? I need more information now if I'm going to try to help you.
I'm sorry. I guess I'm not being clear. I probably should have gave some more background info about myself at the beginning of the journal. And I'm not mad at you, I'm mad at myself since I just get frustrated with how much I self-sabotage myself.
To answer your question, I know X4A is working because the amount of looks I'm getting are amplified.. by a lot. At first when running this, I was starting to get extra looks from only the mid-tiers but after another day or two of listening to X4A-1000, I'm getting results from the 8s, 9s, and 10s as well. To be clear, I've always have gotten looks from mid tier and high tier women, but now it is very much amplified and more intense than usual. If I could give a number, I would say that I'm getting 3x the amount of looks and women will look 3x as long and 3x as much.
My intention when running this sub is to leverage my environment (college and being around a lot of women) to increase their attraction in me so much so that it would be easier for me to make a move or for them to initiate conversation. Also, I'm running this with the intention of getting to sex, since that's at the core of my self-sabotage. I believe it goes like this: My subconscious fears sex. It fears sex because I would be breaking a religious belief instilled as a child (no sex before marriage). And if I broke the belief, then I would be sinning, so to speak.
I no longer hold this belief consciously but subconsciously, it still shows up. For example (this happened a few months ago), there was one girl I found pretty attractive but didn't say anything to her whenever we crossed paths. Just smiled. One day in the gym, she made some small convo with me. Later when going to the dining hall, I saw her sitting down by herself at a table and decided to ask her if the seat at the table was taken and sat down next to her. Had a good conversation for about 10 mins. Talked about her passions, interests, etc. Then her roommate came and so I decided to let her have the seat and we said bye to each other. Never asked for her number, IG handle, nothing. Later, she starts giving obvious flirtatious behavior such as smiling a lot when seeing me, trying to start a conversation, etc. Super obvious signs. Anyways for whatever reason, I just never took it any further. Thus, it has gone nowhere. I bet she's still attracted to me to this day but she's still waiting for me to do something...
That's been the case for some girls and some cases are different. Other times with the 8s, 9s, 10s, I either don't talk to them or just seem standoffish/ awkward when talking to them, thus letting them be the ones that become disinterested. Most of the time though, I believe that these girls are interested but I'm just simply limiting my opportunities. Most of the time I show the facial expression of being serious and "locked in", as if I were one of the guys on some cologne ad. It's like for us guys if we saw a 10. We probably would be intimidated since this girl is extremely hot and we probably would feel nervous/ scared if we were going to try to start a convo and get her number.
Most of the time, I'm getting many signs of attraction from women but it isn't a girl smiling and showing open body language, inviting me to come talk to her (usually the girls who are desperate). It is usually the girl that stares when possible but then looks away when I face her direction, hoping that I didn't catch her staring. But obviously, you don't expect the high-tier women to act super flirtatious anyways since they are used to guys chasing.
I feel like this self-sabotage would all just go away if I allow myself to have sex just one time. Like a roller coaster, you are scared at first and may even try avoiding riding it because you are so scared, but after you ride one for the first time, you instantly feel amazing and want to ride it again. I have one girl I know who may make that happen if I start talking to her again. I'm just so tired of the missed opportunities and self-sabotage that I'm willing to take about any kind of action to overcome this fear because once I overcome this fear, the chains are gone.
Hope I'm being clear. Ask anything if you want clarification.
