Findingme's E5 journal

[findingme]

I find myself trying to foul up my getting-ready routine to get out the door.  Like there's some "relief" by messing up.  Or failing when it's not needed.  Punishing myself makes a lot of self-inflicted pain.  Doesn't make much sense.  Not at all.

Another possibility - you are healing so that you are "allowing" yourself small "failures" - overcoming perfectionism. Learning that failure is not always fatal.

I have been thinking along those lines.  Self-acceptance even in my utter failings.