03-07-2023, 02:22 AM
March 7, 2023
1st rest day
I woke up and was slowly feeling the hurt of my wife pulling away 12 years ago. My mind seems to shut down as I get closer, as it's not the only time in my life I've felt so rejected. Those issues still steer my life in every interaction. Yeah, every interaction. I keep everyone away to not stir these remembrances.
E5 is moving considerably more than any other healing subliminal I've ever used. I sense it's working into areas without so much trauma to warm me up to tbe deeper stuff.
Edit: This is affecting me more than I realized. I'm trying to write without emoting, and that's dishonest to myself. There's both great fear and feelings of being abandoned, and that's why I distanced myself.
But---abandonment is my biggest trauma I carry that I'm aware of. E5 is doing a work. Challenging both fear and pain at the same time.
1st rest day
I woke up and was slowly feeling the hurt of my wife pulling away 12 years ago. My mind seems to shut down as I get closer, as it's not the only time in my life I've felt so rejected. Those issues still steer my life in every interaction. Yeah, every interaction. I keep everyone away to not stir these remembrances.
E5 is moving considerably more than any other healing subliminal I've ever used. I sense it's working into areas without so much trauma to warm me up to tbe deeper stuff.
Edit: This is affecting me more than I realized. I'm trying to write without emoting, and that's dishonest to myself. There's both great fear and feelings of being abandoned, and that's why I distanced myself.
But---abandonment is my biggest trauma I carry that I'm aware of. E5 is doing a work. Challenging both fear and pain at the same time.
I want to be FREE!
