Findingme's E5 journal

[findingme]

I think EHPRA is an overlooked and sometimes underrated sub. E5 is powerful, especially when it comes to getting at the roots of your problems and helping you process them.

I agree that it's overlooked and underrated.  Wholeheartedly.  I was made aware of its effectiveness while using E2 in the past.  While yes, E5 is a healing sub, meaning anyone might experience emotional distress from time to time, the EHPRA series has a lot of emotional and mental supports, and those supports are my main reasons I'm on it.  Because healing can be very demanding and confusing, at best.  Shannon realized this, and scripted some solutions. I'll list some supports I lean on.

--Overcome the Victim Mindset: something I've always valued.  I grew up seeing people seeking to escape responsibility by playing the victim.  I did so too.  I wouldn't wish my worst enemy to use this, as all it creates is unhappiness for people.  OTVM eliminates this as an option in my thinking.

--Positive Thinking, Positive Attitude: I saw and felt this loudly in my final months of using E2.  One day I found myself smiling and I didn't even realize it.  But the people I was around were kind of shocked.  Why would someone on a healing sub be so happy?  PTPA did this, and it feels fantastic when executing.  I felt it just 2 weeks in with E5.

--A sense of hope is scripted in there.  Without this, life seems dull and hopeless.  With hope, I have reason to pursue good changes in my life.

--Not seeking others' acceptance or permission to heal: I pulled back from unhealthy family members with unrealistic expectations.  I loved this while on E2.  

--Fear Removal: on E2, it constantly deflected fear, but once I came off E2, they slowly returned.  Persistent buggers they are.  I'm only almost 3 weeks in, but even direct fear battles aren't so debilitating.  Having that sense of hope alongside helps tremendously.

--A deservedness for healing.  When all I've ever witnessed and practiced was dismissing my needs and wants, this sets a brand new standard.  To be blunt, now "I can heal".

--OGSF: I know this isn't the 5.9 level of power, but having it coupled with removing traumas makes me really, really appreciative of its aim.  It allows healing.


I know I haven't faced some tough battles yet, but the increased intensity on trauma healing is felt.  E2's intensity was much lighter, which is why I'm on the latest release.  Shannon's commitment to it achieving its goal is greatly appreciated by me. 

And as of this writing, I think E5 is still laying the foundation, which I accept and encourage.  To put meat to this statement, today I had both flowing tears, sorrow over some mistakes and passivity, and also an increasing joy coming out, not all at once, of course.  E5 is the full package.  It's doing its work in me, even on my rest days.  That's simply amazing.

Edit: I forgot a major support asset the E series contains, and from experience I've had with other subliminal vendors, it's a key ingredient for success in emotional healing. That asset is scripting which allows the conscious mind to not be fully aware of past emotional pain while healing. Dealing with my stuff head on and without help invites and grows fear and aversion to the very practice of healing. Noone, especially me, wants to relive specific moments of hell when younger. Noone. I may have forgot this while writing earlier since I'm not in emotional distress non-stop. Thank you for prioritizing this Shannon, as it sets your subliminals apart. This makes the goal of healing seem not only possible, but desirable as well. So, again I thank you.