01-29-2023, 05:17 PM
I'll report that E4 really opened me up. I cleaned up my kitchen--because I sense now that I've been avoiding finishing things. Not finishing things links me into shame and powerlessness, a norm used to hide and not move out of this "safe" (stuck) place. So I cleaned up.
I got all my stuff ready for work tomorrow. Then I decided to not make tomorrow's listening all clustered and jobbled up (not a word) so I downloaded Audacity and made an hour-long recording of silence. I put 5 loops of that before 2 loops of E5. So I'll listen to masked while I'm sleeping.
.....and I actually came to write since I still heavily feel a need to express, to get something out. That's a growing need in me. I had imagined turning on some old sappy movie to match my mood. All so I could get a good cry on. If E4 (and now E5) open me up like this, I welcome it. I've been standing here stuck too long.
I got all my stuff ready for work tomorrow. Then I decided to not make tomorrow's listening all clustered and jobbled up (not a word) so I downloaded Audacity and made an hour-long recording of silence. I put 5 loops of that before 2 loops of E5. So I'll listen to masked while I'm sleeping.
.....and I actually came to write since I still heavily feel a need to express, to get something out. That's a growing need in me. I had imagined turning on some old sappy movie to match my mood. All so I could get a good cry on. If E4 (and now E5) open me up like this, I welcome it. I've been standing here stuck too long.
I want to be FREE!
