Attract Romantic Love 5.8G

[Reznik]

Hey Reznik, Maybe hopefully by Christmas you will meet your santa baby romantic love.

Thanks Z Man! Yeah that would be ideal!

I'm still listening to the Attract Romantic Love sub. Oddly enough the woman I wrote about in my Self Esteem thread has come back into my life in a way. About a week before Thanksgiving I noticed her finding reasons to be around me at work and we started talking more than we had since we broke up. I've noticed her circle of friends has expanded and she made changes to some things in her life. I thought, cool maybe she's been listening to Self Esteem. Two weeks ago somehow we ended up talking in the parking lot for three hours after work and at the end she asked me to go for drinks in a few days. So we met and had a nice chat, and the bar closed and kicked us out at 11 so we went to her car and talked until 5 am. At the end of that we were holding hands and cuddling a bit and it was really nice. There is something truly cosmic about her...I can't explain it. 

We went our ways but then the next days got weird. Finally she apologized and said she had let it go too far and didn't want to get back together at all. We talked about the possibility of becoming FWB or something. After thinking about that discussion for a day or two she said no, she couldn't do that. Then she admitted she had had some sexual trauma in her past and felt like she couldn't know how to love anyone including me only that she cares for me a lot and wants to be friends. She said she has been going to a therapist which is cool. I'm happy for her, but no she hadn't listened to the Self Esteem sub. But of course no, I don't be friends with a woman because what do I get out of giving a woman my time and attention with no return? So we are back to being professional and polite colleagues at work.  

That's the closest I've gotten to any physical manifestation. I'll keep listening though. Everything else is as before. I don't think about it, I just do my routine and live my life.