I played soccer yesterday and had fun! I burned out my stamina playing too. I haven't played soccer for one, two, or more years but I realize it may be a piece of the puzzle for having balance and renewed energy reserves in my life to focus on other pursuits such as computer and data science studying. For the past two weeks, I weightlifted in the morning at 6:30-7:30am and now I want to incorporate soccer into my life by playing in the evenings on the weekdays and potentially weekends. This may not seem like much of a transformation to people reading this, but I feel so good right now that I know I'm moving in a direction that will make me have a happier and more complete life given that I can keep up this workout and sports driven schedule.
I may not have time for a master's degree if I keep up this routine which may move my life in another direction other than the graduate education route. I just can't give up exercise from weightlifting and i'm so excited about the prospect of soccer allowing me to exercise my value of "FUN" as I improve my physique and mind with other challenges that I can take on in my free time. I was so wishy-washy and scared of going to the soccer meetup in my area because I didn't want to relive bad experiences of assholes i met in the past playing soccer, but surprisingly it went well. This all started with the soccer anime blue lock, so I give that credit. I don't know if OFv4 played a role in this, but I generally feel more relaxed as a person when making decisions and just end up doing what I want rather than doing what I think I should want or am supposed to do based on preconceived notions of how to be successful.
I may add more to this post as I have time to process and think.
I think soccer balancing my life out helps me have a more complete life whereas I usually obsess over studying when I barely study at all because of lack of proper motivation. But I think having "fun" will free me up to reach my fuller/higher potential as I do things that push me to be in a better mind space. In essence, I have a more complete life with weightlifting in the morning and soccer in the evening. Studying data science for graduate education is such a small part of my life. The cool thing is that I have more motivation to study SQL because I'll be using that everyday now for work, so I have more motivation to study in my free time outside of weightlifting and soccer.
I came to the conclusion of why I should have "fun" playing soccer by talking with my therapist, so I thank and appreciate my therapist helping me think things through right before I went to play soccer yesterday evening.
I think my takeaway from my therapy session was that having "fun" helps me devalue my interest in pursuing a master's education and value my own life more.
I may not have time for a master's degree if I keep up this routine which may move my life in another direction other than the graduate education route. I just can't give up exercise from weightlifting and i'm so excited about the prospect of soccer allowing me to exercise my value of "FUN" as I improve my physique and mind with other challenges that I can take on in my free time. I was so wishy-washy and scared of going to the soccer meetup in my area because I didn't want to relive bad experiences of assholes i met in the past playing soccer, but surprisingly it went well. This all started with the soccer anime blue lock, so I give that credit. I don't know if OFv4 played a role in this, but I generally feel more relaxed as a person when making decisions and just end up doing what I want rather than doing what I think I should want or am supposed to do based on preconceived notions of how to be successful.
I may add more to this post as I have time to process and think.
I think soccer balancing my life out helps me have a more complete life whereas I usually obsess over studying when I barely study at all because of lack of proper motivation. But I think having "fun" will free me up to reach my fuller/higher potential as I do things that push me to be in a better mind space. In essence, I have a more complete life with weightlifting in the morning and soccer in the evening. Studying data science for graduate education is such a small part of my life. The cool thing is that I have more motivation to study SQL because I'll be using that everyday now for work, so I have more motivation to study in my free time outside of weightlifting and soccer.
I came to the conclusion of why I should have "fun" playing soccer by talking with my therapist, so I thank and appreciate my therapist helping me think things through right before I went to play soccer yesterday evening.
I think my takeaway from my therapy session was that having "fun" helps me devalue my interest in pursuing a master's education and value my own life more.
