10-19-2022, 12:07 AM
welp things have not been so well lately, a week ago I found an AI image generating site wich meant a lot of happy fapping moments.
I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.
also last monday, I got really depressed because i got mocked by a higher up for being to slow while at the same time not much was going on at work,
To the point where I was playing with the thoughts of killing myself wich I would never do thank god,
But I still couldn't help myself of doubting my self worth and if life would ever get better. (I know it will because I fully trust the experiments on this site.)
So yeah past moments where full of doubt about: jobs, relationships, weightloss cause I still have to buy myself sometime (1 whole year) to start using HOWL.
Anyway, I just stick to my plan and have to stay strong in the meanwhile..
I do know it would hurt the alpha male program but i have no idea how much damage it does to OCF4.
also last monday, I got really depressed because i got mocked by a higher up for being to slow while at the same time not much was going on at work,
To the point where I was playing with the thoughts of killing myself wich I would never do thank god,
But I still couldn't help myself of doubting my self worth and if life would ever get better. (I know it will because I fully trust the experiments on this site.)
So yeah past moments where full of doubt about: jobs, relationships, weightloss cause I still have to buy myself sometime (1 whole year) to start using HOWL.
Anyway, I just stick to my plan and have to stay strong in the meanwhile..
