10-01-2022, 01:49 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-01-2022, 02:03 AM by ncbeareatingman.)
Whew.... Big shake up, wake up call, reality check this morning. It showed me a ton of fear, remaining ! Here goes. Today is Big Day for Me as I Had and made a Big Purchase today, not here on IML I Mean, but else where. I was nervous as heck, didnt want to miss out on this special deal, however I was more nervous in my thoughts than in by body. I wasnt shaking or jittery, but I was concerned for shure
Things went mostly well with the transaction .though I had two different purchase. the second, one I will be contacting the company to get a few things hopefully, worked out and resolved. The second purchase was a helluva lot smaller than the "Big" one ,was ... Im dealing with and adjusting things emotionally. Thank goodness for OFv4. Whew. Understandment
Today is supposed to be my second day off of OFv4 , I got on it at 4 am AND will run it til 8 this morning.
However, but internally is where I wanted to go with this, right now,Mainly. as it showed me I still have massive fears around money/survival/ Life, No gonna die because of it ,and related material and 'stuff'.
I Felt this fear based stuff all the way down in the pelvic floor, 1st chakra stuff,deinitely and related. MY stomach is still a but tense and I know for a fact if I had ASR I'd've been on it already for a 10 minute run,as such, none the less Im OK even still.
The metaphor is : In short the nervous shit show,of OMG I've gotta go out on stage and face a helluva lot of people and pretend I know WTF Im doing with MY performance."
Thats the intensity of the thinking/feeling/feelings around all this Big purchase
Im on the mend, since were on the other side of this purchase ,I got what I wanted mostly and so now...its recovery time!
Thats the deep survi val OMG freak out stuff to clear along with the even deeper Oh shit,Im gonna die fear based stuff up in spades.
Also energetically, with I get into this Strong Fear wave over me, I become a bit restricted in my energies. its like having slight constipation but not majorly clogged up- traffic jam. so to speak. I cold see how if I play by cards right and with using OFv4,I could get a ahh ummm "Royal Flush" ha.
OMG how fear affects us so deeply and so often. thank goodness for solutions,options ,alternatives and possibilities !!
In fact I'd love to see a combo of a heavy dose of OFv4 , lesser dose but still highly effective of ASR, put into a version
UMV3.
Thank the heavens that have this program and two that I can use it for another 6 months or long if needed
Whew. Im still ' 'nevery" but dealing with,deep breathing, its a weird combo of Im excited for what I purchased and a deep fear(s) of what if this doesnt work the way I need it to and the possible heavy dissapointment to follow ( thats the kind of shit that holds people back, one of the major one's anyway) I did it anyway a huge step in Faith and 'testing the Unknown" dipping me toe in the water, mate.
Now I have to go and work on relaxing my solar plexus, tense after all of this... time wise it approached 6 am at 5:47 am.
Without a Doubt the journey continues
Good Day Gents..
Things went mostly well with the transaction .though I had two different purchase. the second, one I will be contacting the company to get a few things hopefully, worked out and resolved. The second purchase was a helluva lot smaller than the "Big" one ,was ... Im dealing with and adjusting things emotionally. Thank goodness for OFv4. Whew. Understandment
Today is supposed to be my second day off of OFv4 , I got on it at 4 am AND will run it til 8 this morning.
However, but internally is where I wanted to go with this, right now,Mainly. as it showed me I still have massive fears around money/survival/ Life, No gonna die because of it ,and related material and 'stuff'.
I Felt this fear based stuff all the way down in the pelvic floor, 1st chakra stuff,deinitely and related. MY stomach is still a but tense and I know for a fact if I had ASR I'd've been on it already for a 10 minute run,as such, none the less Im OK even still.
The metaphor is : In short the nervous shit show,of OMG I've gotta go out on stage and face a helluva lot of people and pretend I know WTF Im doing with MY performance."
Thats the intensity of the thinking/feeling/feelings around all this Big purchase
Im on the mend, since were on the other side of this purchase ,I got what I wanted mostly and so now...its recovery time!
Thats the deep survi val OMG freak out stuff to clear along with the even deeper Oh shit,Im gonna die fear based stuff up in spades.
Also energetically, with I get into this Strong Fear wave over me, I become a bit restricted in my energies. its like having slight constipation but not majorly clogged up- traffic jam. so to speak. I cold see how if I play by cards right and with using OFv4,I could get a ahh ummm "Royal Flush" ha.
OMG how fear affects us so deeply and so often. thank goodness for solutions,options ,alternatives and possibilities !!
In fact I'd love to see a combo of a heavy dose of OFv4 , lesser dose but still highly effective of ASR, put into a version
UMV3.
Thank the heavens that have this program and two that I can use it for another 6 months or long if needed
Whew. Im still ' 'nevery" but dealing with,deep breathing, its a weird combo of Im excited for what I purchased and a deep fear(s) of what if this doesnt work the way I need it to and the possible heavy dissapointment to follow ( thats the kind of shit that holds people back, one of the major one's anyway) I did it anyway a huge step in Faith and 'testing the Unknown" dipping me toe in the water, mate.
Now I have to go and work on relaxing my solar plexus, tense after all of this... time wise it approached 6 am at 5:47 am.
Without a Doubt the journey continues
Good Day Gents..
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!" "The energy is what tells you the truth" - Ceasar Millan - The Dog Whisperer
