09-23-2022, 11:10 PM
it has been a while but here's a little update:
Day off 2 Cycle 9:
Last week while I was walking with my dog, I met this kid who was very wise for his age and so I had no Idea how to respond to him and thats where it hit me, The reason I'm scared of starting conversations is because I have no idea what to talk about because my knowledge and interests are so limited..
A few days ago I had a conversation with my neighbor who asked me about when I was working again so I told him I will start next month (10/3) and then asked me where it was and after that told me a story about his past,
So atleast I can listen to people.
I also noticed my self censor is getting weaker but I still haven't succeeded into ditching sociale media because I dont know what else to do so I hope I can get some control of it before I start to get into conflicts.
Also the past 4 days I was taking care of my dog and I have to say I learned the difference between fear and guilt..
where I kept feeding my dog human food because it would be sad otherwise.. But I stopped beating myself up for making a mistake like I used to.
I also cut a off day off so its 2 Days on and 3 days off.
Day off 2 Cycle 9:
Last week while I was walking with my dog, I met this kid who was very wise for his age and so I had no Idea how to respond to him and thats where it hit me, The reason I'm scared of starting conversations is because I have no idea what to talk about because my knowledge and interests are so limited..
A few days ago I had a conversation with my neighbor who asked me about when I was working again so I told him I will start next month (10/3) and then asked me where it was and after that told me a story about his past,
So atleast I can listen to people.
I also noticed my self censor is getting weaker but I still haven't succeeded into ditching sociale media because I dont know what else to do so I hope I can get some control of it before I start to get into conflicts.
Also the past 4 days I was taking care of my dog and I have to say I learned the difference between fear and guilt..
where I kept feeding my dog human food because it would be sad otherwise.. But I stopped beating myself up for making a mistake like I used to.
I also cut a off day off so its 2 Days on and 3 days off.
