Overcoming Fear v4: The Special Case Files

[StridingStrider]

I suspect karma has more important things to do that getting you to step in dog shit.

Maybe so, but it's a strange coincidence. I'm fairly reflective on everything that happens now as everything's connected.

Cycle #12 On #1

Woke up two hours early with my playlist replaying. Forgot to turn off replay, but I think it did the full four loops after my white noise track. I felt pretty refreshed. Maybe the nutritional yeast I'm eating is helping my energy levels.

The day started off good, got my train on time and work girl was conversational but restrained. At the end of the day though I felt anxious being seen leaving her. I guess my fear of judgement hasn't fully gone yet. That said, I've been more expressive being an authority figure, which was good. I was left in charge of a class and had to maintain discipline. Didn't fully work but I was less self conscious about it.

Really want to get rid of these fears surrounding women - fear of intimacy, being hurt etc. If that happens then I could potentially have a decent relationship. Until then it feels fairly impossible/not worth it as you come across as too needy and lose respect. Damn. Let's go!