09-08-2022, 10:28 PM
Day off 4 Cycle 6
3 days ago I got someone visiting me, asked to help me by my friends (cause I got a few rant moments about my live wich I no doubt was helped by the fact I used my subs wrong in the past) and asked me what I needed help with and if it was okay my Mom was sitting with ous.
So Interestingly I had no problems because normally I would avoid my mom's involvement because of fear of conflict but it turned out, she was okay with all the improvements that I wanted. This surprised me alot, cause I always thought she always wanted me to live with her till she died, guess I didn't know everything after all..
(ofcourse I haven't said anything about this site's experiences. although one of my friends who I told about it earlier seems to be okay with me using it now,although it could also be because she knows I wont stop anyway. xD)
So soon I will get coach to help me with some problems, The best part will be in the sociolicing cause then I would destroy my fears both inside and outside
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Speaking of fear I noticed it being very weird lately like things that I used to fear are less but things I didn't used to fear became higher,
This and being extreemly tired in the past few days are the reason why I'm only writing it now.
I bought tranquillizer sleep yesterday and despite still waking up in the middle of the night I also went back to sleep faster (despite only 2 loops)
I dont know if doing this is save on off days since I already use OCF4 but I saw Shannon saying he used 2 loops before the program begins but it still might be different on off days.. So yeah.. I still should have asked though... glad I atleast feel better now.
3 days ago I got someone visiting me, asked to help me by my friends (cause I got a few rant moments about my live wich I no doubt was helped by the fact I used my subs wrong in the past) and asked me what I needed help with and if it was okay my Mom was sitting with ous.
So Interestingly I had no problems because normally I would avoid my mom's involvement because of fear of conflict but it turned out, she was okay with all the improvements that I wanted. This surprised me alot, cause I always thought she always wanted me to live with her till she died, guess I didn't know everything after all..
(ofcourse I haven't said anything about this site's experiences. although one of my friends who I told about it earlier seems to be okay with me using it now,although it could also be because she knows I wont stop anyway. xD)
So soon I will get coach to help me with some problems, The best part will be in the sociolicing cause then I would destroy my fears both inside and outside
.Speaking of fear I noticed it being very weird lately like things that I used to fear are less but things I didn't used to fear became higher,
This and being extreemly tired in the past few days are the reason why I'm only writing it now.
I bought tranquillizer sleep yesterday and despite still waking up in the middle of the night I also went back to sleep faster (despite only 2 loops)
I dont know if doing this is save on off days since I already use OCF4 but I saw Shannon saying he used 2 loops before the program begins but it still might be different on off days.. So yeah.. I still should have asked though... glad I atleast feel better now.
