09-07-2022, 11:36 AM
(09-07-2022, 11:16 AM)Frosted Wrote: My subconscious seems to be trying to threaten me. It’s saying “See this thing you fear? No don’t get rid of it or else you’ll do/be that thing!”. Then when I ignore it, it escalates: “No, see really! Here is evidence (doesn’t have to logically make sense) and in fact I’m forcing this thing I’m afraid of to happen because I’m so scared to get rid of the fear preventing me from doing this in the first place!”. Kind of like “If you won’t do what I want then I’ll throw it in your face and give you the exact opposite of what you want!”
I’m not sure if my subconscious is playing chicken and has any intention of actually doing these things or not.
Side note: I’m finding it hard to stay away from porn. A resistance tactic seems to be compulsive masturbation. I’ve been so good about not watching porn for weeks too :/.
Kind of when my subconscious want me to think I'm going to die, I'm just like, kill me now you idiot if you don't want it otherwise, one will have to kill the other.
