I just woke up and I’m feeling dizzy. I’m pretty sure this is from the fear removal process.
Yesterday I finished reading the second “Wheel of Time” book “The Great Hunt”. I was not expecting that book to be so heavy. The depiction of slavery in that book chilled my bones. It caused me to dig deep and see why I was so affected by it. I had a lot of entangled fear and toxic shame and I empathized with the slaves and their loss of freedom. The slavery in that book didn’t involve rape or anything like that. In fact it was all really “civilized”. The scary thing is the depiction of the loss of freedom and identity and what it does to a person.
I can’t wait to be done with fear so I can move on to healing my deep toxic shame and emotional wounds.
Edit: I forgot to mention, my migraine symptoms have been coming on a bit here and there and with constant observing, I’ve decided that the headaches/migraines I’ve been dealing with lately (and probably most of the time, besides) have been caused by fear. I started getting these migraines around the time I hit puberty.
Edit 2: Another thing: I had a dream last week that should have been a nightmare, but turned out to be a good dream filled with joy. It’s the first good dream I can remember having in years. The rest tend to be neutral, just plain weird, or some variation of nightmare.
Yesterday I finished reading the second “Wheel of Time” book “The Great Hunt”. I was not expecting that book to be so heavy. The depiction of slavery in that book chilled my bones. It caused me to dig deep and see why I was so affected by it. I had a lot of entangled fear and toxic shame and I empathized with the slaves and their loss of freedom. The slavery in that book didn’t involve rape or anything like that. In fact it was all really “civilized”. The scary thing is the depiction of the loss of freedom and identity and what it does to a person.
I can’t wait to be done with fear so I can move on to healing my deep toxic shame and emotional wounds.
Edit: I forgot to mention, my migraine symptoms have been coming on a bit here and there and with constant observing, I’ve decided that the headaches/migraines I’ve been dealing with lately (and probably most of the time, besides) have been caused by fear. I started getting these migraines around the time I hit puberty.
Edit 2: Another thing: I had a dream last week that should have been a nightmare, but turned out to be a good dream filled with joy. It’s the first good dream I can remember having in years. The rest tend to be neutral, just plain weird, or some variation of nightmare.
