OF4 - Frosted

[Frosted]

When they come up, how is your subconscious and conscious mind dealing with them on OFv4?

For the conscious I notice that my tendency to over analyze is being replaced by a combination of the courage necessary to not mentally run away and the courage to let go to the degree needed to examine the fear and reason for the fear, or to let my subconscious handle it. At least some of the time. It’s also hard to analyze when I’m dealing with a large fear because it’s kind of more of a flow-like state than a logical state.

I also notice that some of the fears I couldn’t quite nail down on LTU6 are bing dealt with slowly but surely.

When I’m running my loops I can tell something is going on deep down but I can’t quite tell what. I have a combination of super calm and super panic on certain levels.

My mind seems a little burnt out out these past few days but that could be because of the accidental 8 loops I had a few days ago.

I researched basic skincare and hair care and bought some products. I think this is from LTU6 since I really want to take care of myself. I think OF4 is responsible for overcoming some fears about pulling the trigger on this. I’m also getting a badly needed haircut because I’ve been to scared about money to pull the trigger on it until now. So I’m gonna look good . Unfortunately my wardrobe is still garbage, but I’ll have to wait awhile to buy anything for that.

Sorry if my post is confusing or unorganized. Like I alluded to earlier, my brain is getting tired easily.

Edit: also something I’m just remembering is that I’ll randomly realize that I’m less afraid or more comfortable in a certian situation. So while on one level I’ll be dealing with these huge fears, on another I’ll suddenly realize that I’m missing some other fears I didn’t even realize were gone.