06-10-2022, 02:32 PM
(06-10-2022, 01:08 PM)Kol Wrote: You are correct, I have barely any resistence. Accepting the sub as "me" helps a lot and eases the process.
I think in part it has to do with lack of risk-averse-ness. Yesterday I felt positive and caught myself finishing the sentence "for now" as in, I welcome the storm. "I feel positive on this sub, for now" Its all cool feeling positive and cosey but I grow in adversary, challenges and when being brought to the edge, or having a dark night of the soul experience. In no way am I saying it is a must, but in moments of adversary and hardship, I know I grow. I somewhat want it.
Then again,when I was in the thick of it and the light at the end seems to wane, where you lose connection with your core, I had moments that I said "no more, enough, I dont know anymore" where it seems for the lack of better words "permanent".
Oh yeah, the self conviction. That truly shifted to organic at some point, like it needs to be generated from within to the extent illusion loses its conviction. You have to see it, catch it, and OF makes sure you will at a point.
Patience is key. Something that I had to learn face, and come to terms with.
When I was running that sub, I didn't have time for bullshit even from women. I am who I am, don't like it too bad. Girls just came up to me. I was very social, not looking to sleep with them, just cool talking with them. Conversion with ease. Everything just flowed.
