06-10-2022, 08:17 AM
This is such a good journal. Just powering through fears like it's nothing. Not gonna lie, reading your journal makes me wanna do OF again. You seem to have little to no resistance and OF just does its thing.
I on the other hand experience crazy resistance from running OF. I have some very deep fears at the root of my identity and changing it requires to my knowledge to blast OF like a maniac, and it's still no guarantee. Triggering those deep fears will respond in more fear until I'm so lost in what to do that it'll get its way, and get me to stop. That's how the pattern has been for me with past OF runs.
It is easy to sit here and say that I can do this and I shouldn't think like that blabla but in reality I know from past runs of OF that I'm going to be a entirely different person when fear is doing what fear does, which is to completely delude my rational thinking.
I think that you show some great courage for doing what you do. And believe me, you sharing your experience in this journal sure does help build up my own courage to pick up OF once again and blast through my own fears and find my freedom, or possibly another identity crisis lol
I on the other hand experience crazy resistance from running OF. I have some very deep fears at the root of my identity and changing it requires to my knowledge to blast OF like a maniac, and it's still no guarantee. Triggering those deep fears will respond in more fear until I'm so lost in what to do that it'll get its way, and get me to stop. That's how the pattern has been for me with past OF runs.
It is easy to sit here and say that I can do this and I shouldn't think like that blabla but in reality I know from past runs of OF that I'm going to be a entirely different person when fear is doing what fear does, which is to completely delude my rational thinking.
I think that you show some great courage for doing what you do. And believe me, you sharing your experience in this journal sure does help build up my own courage to pick up OF once again and blast through my own fears and find my freedom, or possibly another identity crisis lol
