Day 10
Woke up driven and earlier then usual this morning. Fresh.
Noticed my patience in traffic is lower till the point of vocalization of it. I get the whole non reactive thing, being stoic, uncaring, but it is more helpfull to actually be mad at times. Get angry! To ALLOW yourself to speak up instead of supressing. Get it out, even for yourself. It also rewires you and trains you. This is also something my martial arts teachers taught. I know some daoist sensei's who do the same. To get the passiveness out of your system.
Another is; this morning when I forgot some stuff, I crossed paths with my neighbour. I greeted him, but he basically ghosted me, which came across to me initially as disrespect, but is based on entitlement and nice guy behaviour. Very much "I did something for you, now you owe me" it got me really mad, and has me thinking "AM6 would kill it.
Idk why I am so about AM6..On dmsi I was thinking back to the 3.1 version and romanticizing it.
I notice OF working in the background, doing its thing, preparing me for something, conditioning me, liberating me, helping me dissolve, similar to the cabine scene in captain america.
Social interactions are running way more smooth. No shame, pretty much open about everything. Just chill basically.
Bodylanguage is top notch and I gain deeper and deeper insight in social dynamics and subconscious behaviour. Im no longer doubting my greater judgment, no longer 2nd guessing myself, while feeling as if im running life like a business,being very high value, visionairy and dominating..looking into the next life.
Another is reflection. I know something has to change, someone has to be called out, when it reflects bad on me. Gf, friends, people.. im way more at ease with confrontation.
What I do notice is a pattern of "like me" there is no need to push relationships. There is a click, sometimes I dont know why. And as there are billions of people on the planet...its a needless giving away of my power. Off centre. Raport flows effortlessly with this click. Abundance. Can be anything that draws my attention.
I notice an overal lack of fear. Its fearless in a sense "being" not caring. Im way quicker to take the lead, give assignments, come to agreement and managing groups.
Woke up driven and earlier then usual this morning. Fresh.
Noticed my patience in traffic is lower till the point of vocalization of it. I get the whole non reactive thing, being stoic, uncaring, but it is more helpfull to actually be mad at times. Get angry! To ALLOW yourself to speak up instead of supressing. Get it out, even for yourself. It also rewires you and trains you. This is also something my martial arts teachers taught. I know some daoist sensei's who do the same. To get the passiveness out of your system.
Another is; this morning when I forgot some stuff, I crossed paths with my neighbour. I greeted him, but he basically ghosted me, which came across to me initially as disrespect, but is based on entitlement and nice guy behaviour. Very much "I did something for you, now you owe me" it got me really mad, and has me thinking "AM6 would kill it.
Idk why I am so about AM6..On dmsi I was thinking back to the 3.1 version and romanticizing it.
I notice OF working in the background, doing its thing, preparing me for something, conditioning me, liberating me, helping me dissolve, similar to the cabine scene in captain america.
Social interactions are running way more smooth. No shame, pretty much open about everything. Just chill basically.
Bodylanguage is top notch and I gain deeper and deeper insight in social dynamics and subconscious behaviour. Im no longer doubting my greater judgment, no longer 2nd guessing myself, while feeling as if im running life like a business,being very high value, visionairy and dominating..looking into the next life.
Another is reflection. I know something has to change, someone has to be called out, when it reflects bad on me. Gf, friends, people.. im way more at ease with confrontation.
What I do notice is a pattern of "like me" there is no need to push relationships. There is a click, sometimes I dont know why. And as there are billions of people on the planet...its a needless giving away of my power. Off centre. Raport flows effortlessly with this click. Abundance. Can be anything that draws my attention.
I notice an overal lack of fear. Its fearless in a sense "being" not caring. Im way quicker to take the lead, give assignments, come to agreement and managing groups.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
