Transcendental Sith Lord's UH / MLS Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Well, seem to be noticing a lot of changes day to day.

First off realized yes, getting rid of the youtube except for when watching videos on courses was the right call. I noticed while driving last night that I just had this overwhelming urge to listen to just fluff stuff or entertaining stuff. I noticed this got even worst after I had an energy drink. Seems like when I have a lot of energy I don't know how to use it productively so I just waste all my energy on listening to entertaining stuff that isn't very productive. Luckily I was able to resist last night and basically switched from listening to my math course to my programming course while solving the programming in my head. I found when I made that switch it became easier though the strong urge was still there for a while. I've decided every time I get one of those urges I will just switch to my programming course and start memorizing and solving issues. Also in doing this I realized that I can learn the programming language basically after about one month and half of doing this. I think for Python it takes about 200 hours of practice to be very comfortable using it for work and I would be able to essentially due to my job get 40 hours in every week.

Secondly, i realized I'm just not going to take life as seriously anymore. What I mean by that is its not that I'm not going to work hard to achieve what I want but instead of taking life seriously I'm just going to see it as a good fun game that I intend to succeed at and win. I noticed once I made that decision my "fear of death" just wasn't there as much as it used to be. Sitting here wondering and fearing of the inevitable is a waste of time. Just reckon with the fact that it is going to happen and be done with it.

Lastly I will be starting my investing finally tomorrow. I feel like after I've given up so much entertainment BS that I need to fill the time not only with studying but something else to pass the time (I will be getting a home gym kit soon as well). I will put a small long term investment that I will just sit and forget about and then have one that I will actively keep trading on over a long period of time. That one I will take a long term approach of maybe only making small % profits per trade but since it will be a large amount of trades over a long period it should equal to a huge amount of money. If all goes well, might use some of that to buy property, etc. Will probably use it also to qualify for my citizenship in an EU country as well.

So far looks like I'm dropping some very unproductive and unhealthy habits while picking up way more productive and healthy ones. Even after the 90 days I think as far as video games even if I go back to playing them it will mostly be games that are story oriented and actually have an ending (will probably limit the amount of time as well). Even then I don't really feel desire to play them anymore. Porn I will probably never go back to because there is no point. YouTube I will definitely still limit as that can be a total sink hole honestly.