05-10-2022, 05:33 PM
(05-10-2022, 05:08 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: I am realizing that even though I know the harsh and unfair judgements and treatment of others to have been hypocritical, unfair and based on self projected bullshit, I still hold onto it because I still have a part of me that at the very least fears it may be valid. This part of me that is deeply ashamed and resentful. This part of me stands in the way of forgiveness and healing and self love, and I'm having a hard time changing it. It is very beautiful and sunny out today, but I am in a very painful emotional place and as such, am in a bad mood, to put things mildly.
I'm sure UH is working, but I feel as though I've hit some sort of snag that I really want to get past, and don't know what to do. Hopefully, the UH will keep doing it's thing and I'll make it past this hurtle. I am trying to meditate in order to facilitate the process. Hard time with that as well.
Yeah this kind of situations at first seems hopeless and impossible, eventually with enough use and time you can overcome them until the emotions holding you back wears off and even after that it may not be the end, at least you will have more freedom to decide how to deal with it, I'll suggest to let your emotions go wild of course without identifying with them and you will feel better after doing so, in my experience at least is possible to do it with fear or you can just accept it, not believing it that's different, probably will be a living hell but not impossible (says someone who thought was hopeless), but anyway you will know how to deal with it.
