08-31-2012, 03:43 PM
(08-31-2012, 02:24 AM)Shannon Wrote: Mat, use it until you're happy with the results. Then add a month.
I don't see why men have to disprove anything. ***** is *****. I only think about sex every 8 or 9 seconds. lol But even if I was thinking about sex all the time, guess what? There's no way women think about it less! That's because humans - ALL humans - are designed from their genes up to REPRODUCE. It's the first purpose of all life, and we humans are positively obsessed with it. ALL of us, which is why we are only outnumbered on this planet by INSECTS! And women may be better at hiding it... and believe me, they're DAMNED good at hiding it... but nobody alive is going to deny their first purpose and stay healthy very long. Maybe that's why we have so many people so screwed up these days? Society expects us all to go against our very nature all the time.
I think a lot of what's being thrown at us and against us as men is easily dealt with by knowing it's ***** and treating it as such from a perspective of "That's so ridiculous it's not even worth acknowledging." Enough men do this, and it'll make an impact.
Will do Shannon. I always enjoy your responses, it really helps me put things in perspective a lot of the time. I guess I've got a little internalized guilt about sex. And like I've said I tend to be overly self critical about things a lot of the time. So if I see a nice looking woman and then start thinking about sex, I kinda feel like I'm a bad person for doing so which is ridiculous because I'm literally going against nature. I think I've got a fair bit of sexual repression going on. No doubt from the bad stuff I've internalized over the years directed at men.
Maybe I'll give sex magnet a go instead of woman magnet. Might help me loosen up a bit when it comes to sex. Eh, I'll see how I feel about it after a couple more months of ASC.
I'm still caught in limbo right now, being unemployed really sucks. One one hand I want to get a job and become independent, but I've got these avoidance problems and general fear that I'm still trying to push through. And on the other hand, I can't relax at all, I feel miserable for not being able to just get out there and find something or muster up the motivation to pursue something. So it's not like I'm knowingly slacking off, playing video games all day, and taking advantage of my parents. Every day I feel like such a burden on them because they work so hard. I try to do as much as I can around the house, I owe them that much. But the lack of being able to be self supportive just kills me every day.
And finding a job is so hard. I'm not talking about retail, which I might start applying for even though I swore off retail. I'm just the kind of guy that absorbs the environment around him, somebody doesn't even have to be directly yelling at me, but someone else and my state will still take a nosedive. When I worked retail it literally sucked the life out of me, I lost interest in everything and I just became so anxious about going to work.
My biggest issue is employers want experience, but I can't get experience until someone actually hires me. There just has to be that one place that decides to give me a chance and then I can build off that. But getting started is always the most difficult part. To top it off I'm still not sure if I even want to work in the computer field anymore. It's hard to find motivation when you are depressed, plus it really clouds your judgment and you can't tell if you actually don't enjoy something or if it's just the depression.
But aside from all that, I'm staying strong. I realized today that maybe some days I'll be more down than others, but I can't force myself out of that state and trying to do so is just gonna burn me out more. So it's better to just make the best of the day and accept that it will pass. It's taken a lot of the stress off of me when I realized I don't have to try so hard to hype myself up, and I'll feel good when I feel good.
