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[Spiral]

I agree. And I think honesty can bring out the confidence in an individual. You are making good progress mat. Let us know when you hit the jackpot

[mat422]

So I think things are definitely changing for the better. I think when I first started the sub I noticed a lot more because it was a drastic shift. Whereas now I'm kind of leveling off and polishing it up. It feels good, it's definitely the much needed confidence boost I wanted.

One of the things I need to work on is just anticipatory anxiety and fear in general. I have a tendency to get ahead of myself and start fearing things more than I should, because I can't predict the future it's stupid to constantly worry about what could happen. I had a pretty bad first job experience as a teenager and I feel like it left somewhat of an impression on me. I know there are jobs out there where the bosses aren't major jerks, but because that's all I've experienced it's hard for me to form a positive idea of what a job is like. I'm still plugging away at it, some days are easier than others. Some days I feel like my life is a bit of a nightmare and I get overwhelmed.

But moving on to good news. I started making music again. Specifically drum and bass. For a while I stayed away from it because of all the anxiety associated with it, but lately I've just been pushing through it and just doing it. It's not easy and I do have a tendency to burn myself out and get a little obsessive about it. Sometimes when I get frustrated though it's the worst feeling and I feel like my perfectionist tendencies prevent me from seeing the progress I've made.

I have to say though just having something that I'm sort of confident in makes me feel better. It also helps take my mind off things for a while.

Oh man! Just saw ASC 5G in the shop, getting that now! This is going to be awesome. Shannon if you are reading this, thank you so much. I can't wait to give this a go.

[mat422]

Been listening to asc 5G for a couple minutes now. Shannon, my god man you've tapped into an incredibly power. My whole body is buzzing, I'm euphoric, and my mood shifted from being slightly depressed to feeling amazingly good.

This was only within the first few minutes. When you said 5G was amazing, I was like there's no way it's that powerful. This isn't even a step above 4G, you skipped two steps at least. This is blowing my mind.

I've been around these subs enough to know when they are affecting me, but this takes it to a whole other level.

My subconscious resistance feels like it's being bypassed. A lot of the time when I was using the 4G version I felt a combination of the positive effects, but I also felt resistance in the form of anxiety. This sub, it's just all good vibes and positivity. I feel like a moth attracted to a flame right now, it's that good.

I've talked about reality shifting before, but man I've never experienced it so profoundly and fast. It's like you look back and see how you were and it feels like a different you. It's not even a bad thing because the new you is what the old you constantly saw as only a dream or something far from reality.

Haha, maybe I'm getting ahead of myself here with only a couple minutes of exposure. But these effects are really in your face, you can't ignore them. Resistance doesn't stand a chance.

[mat422]

Ok so 5G is great. When I'm around it, I definitely get a positive mood boost. Unfortunately if I move away from the sub the euphoric effect seems to die down a bit. Obviously that's not the goal of the sub, to produce euphoria, but I just thought I'd say it's a nice added benefit.

What this really is about is confidence. Let me tell you, I'm noticing it. I'm not fearless yet, I've still got my obstacles to overcome. But damn, the way I hold myself is just different. I stand up straighter, I walk with smooth controlled movements, my voice is deeper and relaxed, eye contact is way easier. Today I was at the gas station and normally I don't feel comfortable around cashiers and kind of just stare off or look down. But today I just didn't care, I had no problem looking the guy in the eyes and I was friendlier than usual. Also I got a message from a market research survey thing. I had to call back and answer questions about stuff, I didn't qualify, but I had a real surreal moment. Normally I'm terrified of phones, like seriously phobic. And I wasn't super relaxed about the call, but I did it and I didn't have to avoid it. The fact that I had the option to call or not and I chose to go through with it and push through the anxiety was awesome enough for me.

So things are slowly changing. It's very natural, it doesn't feel forced. So I start thinking that I've always been this way, but clearly I haven't lol. I can feel like I'm getting there. I still have a lot of anxiety about finding a job and at times I have bad avoidance behaviors. I'm trying to be more proactive instead of shying away from opportunities. It causes a bit of depression at times when I still feel like I have trouble overcoming that fear and really getting out into the real world. But lately I've been feeling an inner sense of confidence, like it's hard but I can do it. That just makes a tremendous difference in my days.

[Shannon]

That feeling that it's always been the way it's becoming is so pronounced that I actually have to build the stop smoking program again because all my testers on 5G/HST/SOS have quit or are close to quitting, but all those who have quit are now telling me... yeah, the sub helped, but I did this, I was gonna quit anyway. Now consider... how do you go from freaking out because "I can't quit!" to quitting without even trying... and think you did it on your own? Obviously the sub's naturalizer is too good! I have to get the program to trigger the realization that the program had an effect!

Glad you're enjoying ASC/5G.

[mat422]

Haha, I definitely know better. That's what I love about your subs though Shannon. It feels like you are making the changes and not some outside force shoving you into these things. Well maybe a bit of an outside push, but it feels good.

I'm really fine tuned when it comes to changes though and I can notice the most subtle of things, so I know when I start doing things that feel natural, but I also know that I previously didn't know how to get there. It's like you see what you have to do, start listening to the sub, then you start doing it and realize hey it's not so hard.

Just a sidenote, I bumped up the volume on the sub today. I realized that I can hear the high frequency, but it doesn't bother me. So if I start getting a major headache or something I'll drop it down, but right now I realized I had a tendency to keep it low because there was less anxiety. But I'm realizing that was just my aversion to the powerful effects of the sub, so now I'm playing it a bit louder because I want the full effect.

[mat422]

I just thought I'd drop in a little insight I seem to have developed. Being that I am a heavily black and white thinker, I like to put things in categories. It's a bad habit of thinking I'm trying to get over.

Now one thing I've realized is that attractive women are one of those things where I'd judge them. I don't know what it is, but I have a tendency to believe that the more attractive a girl is or the closer she is to having a typical trendy look, I lump her in with all the other girls I've seen that have also dressed like that. I think the reason is because I've seen attractive girls be really dumb, but guys still suck up to them and they think they are the greatest thing to walk the earth because of it. Unfortunately I've associated a typical look, with a type of person.

I'm trying to undo this. It's just that the negative sticks out more than the positive. I want to get to a place where I can see a person and see them for an individual, not part of some categorical box I put them in. That's just gonna take awareness and restructuring of my thought process. I think it would be a hell of a lot easier to keep grouping people into categories. But that's not who I am, and I'm always trying to see people as they are.

I admit that I make my life tough at times by pondering these things, but in a lot of ways I'm dedicated to knowing the truth and trying to see things for what they are, not what I think they are. That being said I think both sexes experience their own difficulties. These difficulties are both equally valid, even if they are very different. So women should acknowledge men's difficulties, and men should acknowledge women's difficulties. No more of this, I think men have it harder or I think women have it harder.

[Spiral]

I think you'd benefit from getting exposure from SM I can't say much for WM but maybe WM in 5.0 g could be your next stop. What you have I would think seems very easy to fix.. I used to judge people like crazy but not anymore. Took me 2 runs of alpha and 1 run of SM. May do the same for you. WM would probably be best though when it comes to SM. Oh, gratitude and appreciation could very well change your whole view on things completely so look into that too. I'm curious to see what Shannon thinks.

[Shannon]

I think I am currently too tired to think.

SM 2.0 is really awesome for socializing you. WM 2.0 is going to be good for socializing, too, and I'd say it will probably be a little better at disconnecting from analytical and critical responses to women based on some of the things a few of you guys suggested that made it in.

In either case, I think you'll be best served by using ASC in 5G for a while first before doing anything else, Mat.

[mat422]

I think you'd benefit from getting exposure from SM I can't say much for WM but maybe WM in 5.0 g could be your next stop. What you have I would think seems very easy to fix.. I used to judge people like crazy but not anymore. Took me 2 runs of alpha and 1 run of SM. May do the same for you. WM would probably be best though when it comes to SM. Oh, gratitude and appreciation could very well change your whole view on things completely so look into that too. I'm curious to see what Shannon thinks.

Yeah I think the judgment of people is projection from being overly self critical about myself. But that's cool that SM took that away from you. It's been one of these things that just pops up and I don't like it, but at the same time it's been such a hard habit to break. I tend to judge myself for it too!

I think I am currently too tired to think.

SM 2.0 is really awesome for socializing you. WM 2.0 is going to be good for socializing, too, and I'd say it will probably be a little better at disconnecting from analytical and critical responses to women based on some of the things a few of you guys suggested that made it in.

In either case, I think you'll be best served by using ASC.in 5G for a while first before doing anything else, Mat.

Thanks Shannon. WM 2.0 sounds good. I like the idea of it better than sex magnet, seems to resonate with who I am more.

How long do you think I should use ASC for? I was thinking maybe 3 months?

In the meantime I believe a side effect of increased confidence now is I'm more confident in challenging long held perspectives I've had about the world around me. Prior to this sub I had a tendency to doubt myself a lot and devalue my own views. Also I have a fair bit of OCD, in that I have trouble with consistently questioning my own views and fearing that I'm terribly wrong. It kind of made me feel like I was never solidly on my own two feet and anyone could come by and manipulate how I feel because I wasn't confident in myself. Anyway since listening to this sub my OCD has subsided a lot and I feel more confident in making my own judgments without fear of being wrong. I also realized how tightly I would hold onto ideas just because I felt secure in them, even if they weren't right. I used to think I was always incredibly open minded, but I realized that in some ways I held myself to these constant memes in my life because it felt more secure.

But one thing that's been on my mind a lot is the sexist assumption that men think about sex every 7 seconds. I can't relate to guys that are so controlled by the impulse they throw all caution to the wind. But once again the media starts all of this. The portrayal of men is just damaging because not only do guys have to disprove this assumption, but I'm sure plenty of guys are led to believe that they have to think this way otherwise they don't fit in with other men. Funny how peer pressure is discussed so much in school and then when people grow up to be adults they think they are above it, all the while being subtly influenced in ways they may not even realize.

[Shannon]

Mat, use it until you're happy with the results. Then add a month.

I don't see why men have to disprove anything. Bullshit is bullshit. I only think about sex every 8 or 9 seconds. lol But even if I was thinking about sex all the time, guess what? There's no way women think about it less! That's because humans - ALL humans - are designed from their genes up to REPRODUCE. It's the first purpose of all life, and we humans are positively obsessed with it. ALL of us, which is why we are only outnumbered on this planet by INSECTS! And women may be better at hiding it... and believe me, they're DAMNED good at hiding it... but nobody alive is going to deny their first purpose and stay healthy very long. Maybe that's why we have so many people so screwed up these days? Society expects us all to go against our very nature all the time.

I think a lot of what's being thrown at us and against us as men is easily dealt with by knowing it's bullshit and treating it as such from a perspective of "That's so ridiculous it's not even worth acknowledging." Enough men do this, and it'll make an impact.

[mat422]

Mat, use it until you're happy with the results. Then add a month.

I don't see why men have to disprove anything. ***** is *****. I only think about sex every 8 or 9 seconds. lol But even if I was thinking about sex all the time, guess what? There's no way women think about it less! That's because humans - ALL humans - are designed from their genes up to REPRODUCE. It's the first purpose of all life, and we humans are positively obsessed with it. ALL of us, which is why we are only outnumbered on this planet by INSECTS! And women may be better at hiding it... and believe me, they're DAMNED good at hiding it... but nobody alive is going to deny their first purpose and stay healthy very long. Maybe that's why we have so many people so screwed up these days? Society expects us all to go against our very nature all the time.

I think a lot of what's being thrown at us and against us as men is easily dealt with by knowing it's ***** and treating it as such from a perspective of "That's so ridiculous it's not even worth acknowledging." Enough men do this, and it'll make an impact.

Will do Shannon. I always enjoy your responses, it really helps me put things in perspective a lot of the time. I guess I've got a little internalized guilt about sex. And like I've said I tend to be overly self critical about things a lot of the time. So if I see a nice looking woman and then start thinking about sex, I kinda feel like I'm a bad person for doing so which is ridiculous because I'm literally going against nature. I think I've got a fair bit of sexual repression going on. No doubt from the bad stuff I've internalized over the years directed at men.

Maybe I'll give sex magnet a go instead of woman magnet. Might help me loosen up a bit when it comes to sex. Eh, I'll see how I feel about it after a couple more months of ASC.

I'm still caught in limbo right now, being unemployed really sucks. One one hand I want to get a job and become independent, but I've got these avoidance problems and general fear that I'm still trying to push through. And on the other hand, I can't relax at all, I feel miserable for not being able to just get out there and find something or muster up the motivation to pursue something. So it's not like I'm knowingly slacking off, playing video games all day, and taking advantage of my parents. Every day I feel like such a burden on them because they work so hard. I try to do as much as I can around the house, I owe them that much. But the lack of being able to be self supportive just kills me every day.

And finding a job is so hard. I'm not talking about retail, which I might start applying for even though I swore off retail. I'm just the kind of guy that absorbs the environment around him, somebody doesn't even have to be directly yelling at me, but someone else and my state will still take a nosedive. When I worked retail it literally sucked the life out of me, I lost interest in everything and I just became so anxious about going to work.

My biggest issue is employers want experience, but I can't get experience until someone actually hires me. There just has to be that one place that decides to give me a chance and then I can build off that. But getting started is always the most difficult part. To top it off I'm still not sure if I even want to work in the computer field anymore. It's hard to find motivation when you are depressed, plus it really clouds your judgment and you can't tell if you actually don't enjoy something or if it's just the depression.

But aside from all that, I'm staying strong. I realized today that maybe some days I'll be more down than others, but I can't force myself out of that state and trying to do so is just gonna burn me out more. So it's better to just make the best of the day and accept that it will pass. It's taken a lot of the stress off of me when I realized I don't have to try so hard to hype myself up, and I'll feel good when I feel good.

[Spiral]

What if you tried Everything is Possible with BASE? I'm sure it will give you plenty of ideas and it sounds like your ideal situation would be to work for yourself. OR you can run LM with attract positive energy or winner's mindset and win the lottery most definitely

Pure financial freedom and with that you can do whatever it is you want to do. I'm not guaranteeing you will win the lottery.. but let me know how it goes

[Shannon]

Have been where you are, Mat. You know what got me through? Alpha. And in some directions, being forced. But Alpha is what I owe most of my transformation to, since 2006. I think I am going to start adding fear destruction to everything since fear seems to be the leading issue underlying almost everything else.