02-16-2022, 04:21 PM
@Shannon
So I was showering today and I think I figured out the main source of fear regarding the singing thing.
When we suffer abuse growing up, we are taught that we are worthless and something to be ashamed of. This is extremely painful. So we become afraid of doing anything which would be in alignment with who we truly are, because there are many layers of shame and emotional pain and suffering attached to it, due to abusive messages taught to us over the years. We fear experiencing this pain again, so we fear doing anything which would be in alignment with being who we are and asserting our free agency as individuals, another thing which was met with abuse. Actually, that last thing might be the MAIN aspect of it. Asserting free agency = abuse = pain and suffering. It's like Reek from Game of Thrones.
Reek was a noble named Theon Grayjoy , who was tortured by a psychopath named Ramsay Bolton, who tortured him into accepting a new Identity as Reek (cause he reeks, as a result of the horrid living conditions Ramsay put him in" and associates any and all free agency with extreme abuse, so he's a whipped dog that's been thoroughly brought under heel when his family comes to rescue him.
Now obviously, I haven't been put through the EXTREME torture Theon was put through, but the overall principle of associating free agency with pain and abuse and suffering remains the same.
I think that's it. The unconscious mind doesn't know it's safe. It's stuck in the past I guess.
what do you think of that theory?
So I was showering today and I think I figured out the main source of fear regarding the singing thing.
When we suffer abuse growing up, we are taught that we are worthless and something to be ashamed of. This is extremely painful. So we become afraid of doing anything which would be in alignment with who we truly are, because there are many layers of shame and emotional pain and suffering attached to it, due to abusive messages taught to us over the years. We fear experiencing this pain again, so we fear doing anything which would be in alignment with being who we are and asserting our free agency as individuals, another thing which was met with abuse. Actually, that last thing might be the MAIN aspect of it. Asserting free agency = abuse = pain and suffering. It's like Reek from Game of Thrones.
Reek was a noble named Theon Grayjoy , who was tortured by a psychopath named Ramsay Bolton, who tortured him into accepting a new Identity as Reek (cause he reeks, as a result of the horrid living conditions Ramsay put him in" and associates any and all free agency with extreme abuse, so he's a whipped dog that's been thoroughly brought under heel when his family comes to rescue him.
Now obviously, I haven't been put through the EXTREME torture Theon was put through, but the overall principle of associating free agency with pain and abuse and suffering remains the same.
I think that's it. The unconscious mind doesn't know it's safe. It's stuck in the past I guess.
what do you think of that theory?
