12-19-2021, 03:22 AM
Day 79/180
I've been quite high for the last few days and now I am back to my lows. I met an amazing girl at the club and I ended up sleeping at her place. I just happened to be at the right place and time... She was attracted to me from the very start and began flirting with me. We smoked quite a lot of pot and laughed at stupid shit. On the surface, this might seem like I have had an amazing time but to be honest, the experience left me feeling more confused and lost within myself. I just cannot relate to most people and my conversations with them are usually shallow. I understand that it's my responsibility to take action on this and work on my social skills etc. But the process is very daunting and uninteresting to me. I REALLY REALLY want to become better at dating and attracting women and I wish to find something that I enjoy about the pursuit of it. Perhaps if I tackled the limiting beliefs many doors will start to open.
I've been quite high for the last few days and now I am back to my lows. I met an amazing girl at the club and I ended up sleeping at her place. I just happened to be at the right place and time... She was attracted to me from the very start and began flirting with me. We smoked quite a lot of pot and laughed at stupid shit. On the surface, this might seem like I have had an amazing time but to be honest, the experience left me feeling more confused and lost within myself. I just cannot relate to most people and my conversations with them are usually shallow. I understand that it's my responsibility to take action on this and work on my social skills etc. But the process is very daunting and uninteresting to me. I REALLY REALLY want to become better at dating and attracting women and I wish to find something that I enjoy about the pursuit of it. Perhaps if I tackled the limiting beliefs many doors will start to open.
