10-25-2021, 12:35 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-25-2021, 12:36 AM by SaltyMeatballs.)
Day 26 - Rest
In the last few day's I have noticed the following:
- Mild to moderate depression;
- Sleep disturbances (especially last night);
- Lack of motivation and struggle with getting out of bed;
- Anger, rage, and frustration;
- Complacency and laziness.
In addition, I have observed that my mind is overly biased towards the negative. I am slipping back into a victim role and taking things for granted.
I do not think that the above is all sub-related. Most likely, it is due to me getting less sleep on average. What's unusual, however, is the frequency and the amount of self-sabotaging behaviors and thoughts I have experienced in the last week or so. It is becoming clear to me that the stubborn mind is resisting change. It wants to stay exactly where it is. The paradox of change is that we all want to change but the mind doesn't.
