10-19-2021, 12:48 PM
(10-18-2021, 10:45 AM)tolgaocal80 Wrote:(10-17-2021, 11:55 PM)SaltyMeatballs Wrote: Day 19/180 | 2 loops
Lately, I have been feeling a high level of worry and anxiety about the future. There is a profound level of dissatisfaction with my current situation. I can't keep living like a sheep, following the herd. It feels meaningless and empty. I want to be doing something I love. I want my love for my work to impact people positively. What is the work I am meant to be doing? Despite feeling this way, I recognize that it's increasing my open-mindedness and I am willing to go out and experience new possibilities. I just need to practice being more vulnerable. To stop lying to myself and others. Allow myself to be imperfect and make mistakes.
I feel similar to this, for years I waited for someone to take me out all this pessimism and stagnation, there is no fucking one to do this but only oneself. Fear paralyzes us soo much we even can't figure it out what is going on? what we had missed? but I believe, every damn thing is rooted fear, and it must be gone to achieve more than our current life
How is OF is affecting you in regarding actions and results? not feeling but actions and results, is there anything changed to better?
Great question, thank you for asking. There isn't anything obvious I can pinpoint. So far I am mostly noticing changes at the mental level, which as I have described, is mostly positive. As far as the tangible stuff, I can only bring to mind a few occurrences:
- I have asked for a pay raise.
- I've made a commitment to travel and meet new people. My first journey will begin next week.
- I started seeing a therapist even though it's not necessary that I do. It's just another tool to help me progress faster.
I can't be 100% certain that the above is even related to OFv3. My mind can't yet make definitive distinctions. Sometimes it feels like I'm lying to myself when I say that this sub has changed me. But at the same time, I would be a fool to say that it hasn't.
