09-17-2021, 04:44 AM
Day 78
I feel so tired guys. I'm not sure if it's the resistance or I'm simply overworked and depressed. My motivation to do anything is close to 0 and while I have lots of plans and dreams it feels like today is not the moment to follow them.
For the love of me I cannot think of one instance where I could say "yes, I conquered my fear" in these last weeks. I feel like I'm failing the sub, like I'm doing something wrong but I have no idea what. First few weeks the sub helped me in some hard moments but now all of it seems gone or at least stagnant.
The fact that days are getting shorter, the weather colder and everything around will start getting bleaker and bleaker doesn't help me one bit. If this continues this is gonna be a rough Fall and Winter.
I feel so tired guys. I'm not sure if it's the resistance or I'm simply overworked and depressed. My motivation to do anything is close to 0 and while I have lots of plans and dreams it feels like today is not the moment to follow them.
For the love of me I cannot think of one instance where I could say "yes, I conquered my fear" in these last weeks. I feel like I'm failing the sub, like I'm doing something wrong but I have no idea what. First few weeks the sub helped me in some hard moments but now all of it seems gone or at least stagnant.
The fact that days are getting shorter, the weather colder and everything around will start getting bleaker and bleaker doesn't help me one bit. If this continues this is gonna be a rough Fall and Winter.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
